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2013.11.17 23:55 DirtyFeinstein Senator Feinstein: Representing everybody but us
Many Californians, left, right, & center want her out, but are continually met with 'It can't be done'. Bottom line: We can do better. Let's build a case. What *do* we like about Sen Feinstein? What *don't* we like about Senator Feinstein? What do we as Californians and Americans want in a Senator? Who are some strong contenders for her replacement? How do we make sure the medicine isn't worse than the sickness when she is replaced?
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2023.05.31 02:49 jennkins94 Just watched season 6 and I have to say: Ashley really annoyed me even if her intentions were pure..let me explain
She goes on and on about being left in her cell without clothes literally every episode but doesn’t care that this woman Shanese can’t eat any of the food given as she has celiac disease, so much so that she’s like “I wish she’d shut up complaining and leave” like excuse me?? If that was her she’d of left crying like a baby and said it was illegal and the jail should never let that happen. I don’t get how she can go on about one thing that was so “traumatic” for her then not care about this woman getting legitimately ill because she can’t eat the jail food at all, to the point where she is rolling her eyes at her about it like really? The only thing I saw her do nice to Shanese was gather pieces of oranges for her one time yet still complained and talker behind her back about her complaining (rightfully so btw) smh. Yeah you sure do care about prisoners lol she didn’t even care about a fellow participant’s legitimate grievances. I don’t think this woman is strong enough to be a police officer if she cries at something like getting her clothes taken off her like lol
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2023.05.31 02:40 notasrelevant After viral stomach bug - Tired easily, feel hot, etc.
35, M, ~76 kg, 180 cm.
My kid came down with a stomach bug last week (going around at his school) and then about 1 day later both my wife and I caught it. He got some medicine at the doctor while I was still feeling good, but neither my wife and I went as we were down for the count when it hit us. So not professionally evaluated, but I can only assume a viral stomach bug was the issue. Typical vomiting (2-3 times total) and diarrhea.
The day of was a lot of water and occasionally sports drinks to rehydrate as food was out of the question. Second day started with a banana, bread, and a light meal for dinner. Kept regularly drinking water, sports drinks and some yakult to try to help my system get back on track. Still a bit of diarrhea this day, but only 1-2 times.
Day 3 was almost no symptoms, but had diarrhea in the morning. Was able to eat 3 smaller but somewhat regular meals without forcing myself. Still lots of water.
Since Day 3 was mostly alright, on Day 4 I decided to try heading into the office for work. Still light diarrhea in the morning, but not nearly as bad. Ate a lighter breakfast and tried to drink a good bit of water (2-3 glasses) and a bit of sports drink. On the way in (commute by train, so walking/standing a lot), I started feeling hot very quickly, started feeling weak and the longer it went on I started feeling a bit of nausea. Stopped part-way through my commute to get a bottle of sports drink and just sit for 15-20 minutes to recover, but was basically out of energy for the day at that point. Throughout the day, I had a ton of water, sports drinks, etc. and tried to keep activity to a minimum and that seemed to help.
Now on Day 5, but kind of experiencing the same. Even light physical activity starts to make me feel hot (even though the temperature is only around 20 degrees C) and tired. Had a regular bowel movement, so that was an improvement.
Is this just dehydration? Since I've been keeping up with regularly drinking water and sports drinks to stay hydrated, I figured I would be fine on that point after a day or 2. Even the day I was actually sick, I was able to keep watesports drinks down for the most part. Would it just take a lot longer to rehydrate than I expected? I thought maybe yesterday was partially because I didnt eat as much in the morning, but ate more regularly today, so I dont think that's it. Is my body just still in recovery mode and not ready for much activity?
Or would this be some other potential complication that should be checked by a doctor? If this continues, it would be pretty difficult to keep up with day-to-day activities.
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My kid came down with a stomach bug last week (going around at his school) and then about 1 day later both my wife and I caught it. He got some medicine at the doctor while I was still feeling good, but neither my wife and I went as we were down for the count when it hit us. So not professionally evaluated, but I can only assume a viral stomach bug was the issue. Typical vomiting (2-3 times total) and diarrhea.
The day of was a lot of water and occasionally sports drinks to rehydrate as food was out of the question. Second day started with a banana, bread, and a light meal for dinner. Kept regularly drinking water, sports drinks and some yakult to try to help my system get back on track. Still a bit of diarrhea this day, but only 1-2 times.
Day 3 was almost no symptoms, but had diarrhea in the morning. Was able to eat 3 smaller but somewhat regular meals without forcing myself. Still lots of water.
Since Day 3 was mostly alright, on Day 4 I decided to try heading into the office for work. Still light diarrhea in the morning, but not nearly as bad. Ate a lighter breakfast and tried to drink a good bit of water (2-3 glasses) and a bit of sports drink. On the way in (commute by train, so walking/standing a lot), I started feeling hot very quickly, started feeling weak and the longer it went on I started feeling a bit of nausea. Stopped part-way through my commute to get a bottle of sports drink and just sit for 15-20 minutes to recover, but was basically out of energy for the day at that point. Throughout the day, I had a ton of water, sports drinks, etc. and tried to keep activity to a minimum and that seemed to help.
Now on Day 5, but kind of experiencing the same. Even light physical activity starts to make me feel hot (even though the temperature is only around 20 degrees C) and tired. Had a regular bowel movement, so that was an improvement.
Is this just dehydration? Since I've been keeping up with regularly drinking water and sports drinks to stay hydrated, I figured I would be fine on that point after a day or 2. Even the day I was actually sick, I was able to keep watesports drinks down for the most part. Would it just take a lot longer to rehydrate than I expected? I thought maybe yesterday was partially because I didnt eat as much in the morning, but ate more regularly today, so I dont think that's it. Is my body just still in recovery mode and not ready for much activity?
Or would this be some other potential complication that should be checked by a doctor? If this continues, it would be pretty difficult to keep up with day-to-day activities.
2023.05.31 02:39 kambesama Benchmade Mediator s90V /// Kershaw [Skyline 1760 + Snap-On Leek 1660SO]
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Headed to the post office tomorrow to drop off other packages. Can get these in as well.
Benchmade Mediator S90V- SV-130 OBO/TRADE OFFERS 2nd owner. Purchased in person from the first. Carried around the house but never found any use under my care. Just found myself grabbing at a manual 940 or an OTF over this. The Previous owner sharpened it with a belt sharpener and I touched it up with the WSPPA. It's not a beauty but it is functional, fires strong, and sharp. Normal wear on blade and clip from usage. Set to LH carry currently.
Kershaw Snap-On Leek Assist Open & Skyline Bundle-SV:60 SV:50: For the nice and easy payment plan of 3 Years @ $0.32/week you too can own a Snap-On Leek and Skyline. Yeah, purchased from the trap truck early on in my career as a technician. Jokes aside, both are sharp and sharpened by me on the WSPPA. Leek eventually became my backpack knife (now replaced with the Full Immunity) and Skyline became a slicey fidget toy.
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Headed to the post office tomorrow to drop off other packages. Can get these in as well.
Benchmade Mediator S90V- SV-130 OBO/TRADE OFFERS 2nd owner. Purchased in person from the first. Carried around the house but never found any use under my care. Just found myself grabbing at a manual 940 or an OTF over this. The Previous owner sharpened it with a belt sharpener and I touched it up with the WSPPA. It's not a beauty but it is functional, fires strong, and sharp. Normal wear on blade and clip from usage. Set to LH carry currently.
Kershaw Snap-On Leek Assist Open & Skyline Bundle-
2023.05.31 02:35 Poorly-Drawn-Beagle Sentience
And a twofer! Why not. This has to be one of the first short stories I ever wrote that wasn't fanfiction for another IP. And, as might be inferred, it's not meant to be taken entirely seriously; but I still think uplifted animals are an underused sci fi concept. Anyway, enjoy, if you want.
*******
Gordon’s eyes half-opened in the half-gloom of his quarters. A cold, snuffling nose was poking at his back impatiently. Just twenty more minutes? The snuffling went on unrelenting.
“’m up. ‘m up. Enough.” Gordon untangled himself from the sheets and gently pushed the nose away. “Morning, Nannygoat.”
Nanny chuffed and turned away indignantly. She shook her head around, letting long floppy ears flap about. She did not like to be kept waiting at breakfast time. Gordon stroked her fur a bit to mollify her, and Nanny pretended to ignore him. Eventually he rolled out of bed and she scampered after him to the kitchen. Major- whom Gordon jokingly thought of as the ship’s security chief- was sprawled out on the floor there, moping, but immediately perked up, tail wagging. Both dogs started yapping urgently as he filled their dishes, then started snarfing intently.
While they were about that, Gordon opened one of the portholes and stared out into open space. Empty as usual. There was some kind of augmented option that would color nebulae to make it more interesting but he didn’t usually bother. Augies felt oddly like cheats. It was starting to get dull out here, manning the tendership and patching up junkhaulers. Gordon was a vigorous young man in 60s, and still prone to impatience.
Major popped over. The vox on his collar chirped on: “B’ekfast?”
“You just had it.”
“B’ekfast.”
“Nope.”
Major conceded and padded off to find his leash. Creatures of routine, he and Nanny preferred a trip to the greenhouse after meals. While they searched, Gordon flicked on the newsfeed.
More uprisings on good old Terra Firma. Simian-Socialist raids on Red Cross trucks in the Congo. A kangaroo caught smuggling bomb components into the Parliament House in New Canberra. Some black panthers protesting in DC had come to blows with local police. Two panthers were dead, and a police officer had taken a few bullets to the chest; he was expected to be ready for work in a few hours. Sheesh.
Mankind had grown beyond the aftereffects of disease, and starvation, and violence and so much else; the average human lifespan had more than tripled, and even that was a low estimate when so many lifespans simply didn’t have an ending in sight. Advances in biotechnology and medicine had alleviated so many of the problems endemic to the human race. And yet relations with the Uplifted seemed to get worse by the day. Gordon’s sympathies were wholly with the insurgents- not like those Transhumanics, ugh- but he understood, a little. The Uplifted had some rough shakes, and it was probably hard not to feel you’d got the short end of a stick, living a few decades on a world of nearly-immortals.
Major scampered back with his leash clamped in his mouth, Nannygoat following at a more dignified plod. Gordon flicked the holo off and got their harnesses applied. No time to worry about that today. Life had to go on.
*** Time, as it typically did, passed…***
Meyjerr gestured to the statue remains. He was nervous; he didn’t like being this far into the other tribe’s territory and he wasn’t used to talking to the elders in the first place.
“As I said. Some sort of brass carving, like an Ape but totally bald.”
“Not an ape,” the Eldest sighed. “A remnant from the time of the gods.”
Meyjerr blinked and shook his head a bit, letting his ears flap. “Gods?”
“Just so. You will not have heard the tale; we reserve it for manhood ceremonies. In ancient times they ruled over us, providing us with endless food, gave us our sacred names- Fye-do, Recks, even yours. But our ancestors grew jealous, for the gods did not share with them the secret of immortality. They rose up, and so the gods struck them down, bringing sin and toil into the world.”
Meyjerr was in awe. “What happened to the gods?”
Eldest shrugged. “They left this world, possibly, or they still observe us from beyond the veil of death. Some even say they are no more. None can say for sure.”
“Should we- I mean, take it with us?” Meyjerr gestured at the head again.
“No. I think not. Best leave the past in the past. Come, back to the village.”
Meyjerr obeyed.
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*******
Gordon’s eyes half-opened in the half-gloom of his quarters. A cold, snuffling nose was poking at his back impatiently. Just twenty more minutes? The snuffling went on unrelenting.
“’m up. ‘m up. Enough.” Gordon untangled himself from the sheets and gently pushed the nose away. “Morning, Nannygoat.”
Nanny chuffed and turned away indignantly. She shook her head around, letting long floppy ears flap about. She did not like to be kept waiting at breakfast time. Gordon stroked her fur a bit to mollify her, and Nanny pretended to ignore him. Eventually he rolled out of bed and she scampered after him to the kitchen. Major- whom Gordon jokingly thought of as the ship’s security chief- was sprawled out on the floor there, moping, but immediately perked up, tail wagging. Both dogs started yapping urgently as he filled their dishes, then started snarfing intently.
While they were about that, Gordon opened one of the portholes and stared out into open space. Empty as usual. There was some kind of augmented option that would color nebulae to make it more interesting but he didn’t usually bother. Augies felt oddly like cheats. It was starting to get dull out here, manning the tendership and patching up junkhaulers. Gordon was a vigorous young man in 60s, and still prone to impatience.
Major popped over. The vox on his collar chirped on: “B’ekfast?”
“You just had it.”
“B’ekfast.”
“Nope.”
Major conceded and padded off to find his leash. Creatures of routine, he and Nanny preferred a trip to the greenhouse after meals. While they searched, Gordon flicked on the newsfeed.
More uprisings on good old Terra Firma. Simian-Socialist raids on Red Cross trucks in the Congo. A kangaroo caught smuggling bomb components into the Parliament House in New Canberra. Some black panthers protesting in DC had come to blows with local police. Two panthers were dead, and a police officer had taken a few bullets to the chest; he was expected to be ready for work in a few hours. Sheesh.
Mankind had grown beyond the aftereffects of disease, and starvation, and violence and so much else; the average human lifespan had more than tripled, and even that was a low estimate when so many lifespans simply didn’t have an ending in sight. Advances in biotechnology and medicine had alleviated so many of the problems endemic to the human race. And yet relations with the Uplifted seemed to get worse by the day. Gordon’s sympathies were wholly with the insurgents- not like those Transhumanics, ugh- but he understood, a little. The Uplifted had some rough shakes, and it was probably hard not to feel you’d got the short end of a stick, living a few decades on a world of nearly-immortals.
Major scampered back with his leash clamped in his mouth, Nannygoat following at a more dignified plod. Gordon flicked the holo off and got their harnesses applied. No time to worry about that today. Life had to go on.
*** Time, as it typically did, passed…***
Meyjerr gestured to the statue remains. He was nervous; he didn’t like being this far into the other tribe’s territory and he wasn’t used to talking to the elders in the first place.
“As I said. Some sort of brass carving, like an Ape but totally bald.”
“Not an ape,” the Eldest sighed. “A remnant from the time of the gods.”
Meyjerr blinked and shook his head a bit, letting his ears flap. “Gods?”
“Just so. You will not have heard the tale; we reserve it for manhood ceremonies. In ancient times they ruled over us, providing us with endless food, gave us our sacred names- Fye-do, Recks, even yours. But our ancestors grew jealous, for the gods did not share with them the secret of immortality. They rose up, and so the gods struck them down, bringing sin and toil into the world.”
Meyjerr was in awe. “What happened to the gods?”
Eldest shrugged. “They left this world, possibly, or they still observe us from beyond the veil of death. Some even say they are no more. None can say for sure.”
“Should we- I mean, take it with us?” Meyjerr gestured at the head again.
“No. I think not. Best leave the past in the past. Come, back to the village.”
Meyjerr obeyed.
2023.05.31 02:35 Ok_Froyo3643 Grandma is dead, my mom can finally move past her abuse. Healing generational abuse
Trigger warning** My grandma died on Monday. On one hand I'm sad because she is person who is longer alive, on the other I'm happy because I know nobody else has to deal with her mental and emotional abuse she did throughout her lifetime.
My mom was the oldest of her children and as a result got most of the abuse. I was a child of my mom's, and my grandma continued the abuse of my mom when she became an adult by doing things that would harm/hurt me and my siblings. When my mom was growing up, everything she did was wrong. Ex: hand was floors where my grandma would tell her it has to be washed with rag going in one direction or she was getting screamed at and made to redo it, next time did floors the way she said and it was wrong again so, redo it the original way it was done. Her life was, no matter what she did it was wrong and she got screamed at. She was told things like you're not good enough, no man is going to love you, she got told that my grandma let male strangers peep into my mom's and her sisters bedroom at night when my mom was a teenager.
(Insert story of physical abusive relationship between my parents that I won't go into detail about here). I'm the youngest of my siblings and my parents divorced before I was five. So the only connection my dad should have to my mom after that would be thru his kids. Wrong. My grandma (my mom's mother) knew all about the abusive my dad had did and apparently decided she was going to be good friends with him (they talked for hours on the phone at least once or twice a month, for more than 25 years this went on). What parent becomes friends with someone who physically abused there child.
When I was little, my mom, a single parent was getting $200 some in food stamps monthly. One month, with no income change, it switched to $20 (she had three kids and due to the fact that my dad would purposely throw himself on the floor every two to three years to seem crazy, he didn't have to pay dime on child support for any kids. My aunt told me about him faking his disability at the baby shower I had for my child (which is another level of fucked up). So anyway, my mom calls the food stamp people asking why it dropped, and said people have been calling repetitively saying you have money coming in. Couldn't say who but described one as sounding, southern (my dad) and the other being a female. My mom suspected it was my grandma but didn't confirm it until my grandpa was in a nursing home where he said he walked in on the conversation she was having to people in charge of food stamps. Often what my grandma would due during the $20 food stamp (I was about 7 yrs at the time) was to give us food she had canned. But more often then not the food was moldy, hadn't been canned properly and wasn't edible. You know so my grandma could look like the hero, when really she was the reason there wasnt food in the house. Do you know what you buy when you have less than $40 all together, including the food stamps you can spend on food (in the 90s). There wasn't money going anywhere else, no entertainment money, no going out, not even good will clothes or st Vinny clothes (because we were that poor). Most of my clothes came from my aunt's when I was growing up, or were presents from other relatives. When I was growing up, I was petrified of getting money or anything for Christmas or my birthday because in my mind at like 8 I thought the $20 at most each of my siblings got, might be the reason we end up with less food or that me eating is why we can't afford anything. I didn't understand the abuse and ended up having a very messed up relationship with food as a result, that I'm still trying to overcome. I'm not an emotional eater, I'm an emotional non eater and have to remind my self when something is bothering me that I need to eat still and take care of myself. I used to have to tell myself that I was worthy enough to eat no matter what negative thing I was dealing with (I don't have to convince myself of my worthiness anymore so definite improvement in the last few years). My grandma's reasoning for calling food stamps was so that my would have to get back with my dad (you know the highly d**gerous and abusive relationship) because she thought that was the best my mom could do.
My mom's siblings in the last two years, told my mom that my grandma (their mom) had told them that was mom was evl, she did bad things, she would hrm them, she worshipped the d***l, that she was a pathological liar and shouldn't be trusted and because of how big of a gap in ages (they believed her). My grandma would brag about doing spell work and about how she prayed that my mom would never succeed, or find love or be happy and my grandma bragged that this was common prayed she had.
But that's who's dead now and like I said I know I should feel sad but I'm actually relieved. And I feel better now that I've shared this.
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My mom was the oldest of her children and as a result got most of the abuse. I was a child of my mom's, and my grandma continued the abuse of my mom when she became an adult by doing things that would harm/hurt me and my siblings. When my mom was growing up, everything she did was wrong. Ex: hand was floors where my grandma would tell her it has to be washed with rag going in one direction or she was getting screamed at and made to redo it, next time did floors the way she said and it was wrong again so, redo it the original way it was done. Her life was, no matter what she did it was wrong and she got screamed at. She was told things like you're not good enough, no man is going to love you, she got told that my grandma let male strangers peep into my mom's and her sisters bedroom at night when my mom was a teenager.
(Insert story of physical abusive relationship between my parents that I won't go into detail about here). I'm the youngest of my siblings and my parents divorced before I was five. So the only connection my dad should have to my mom after that would be thru his kids. Wrong. My grandma (my mom's mother) knew all about the abusive my dad had did and apparently decided she was going to be good friends with him (they talked for hours on the phone at least once or twice a month, for more than 25 years this went on). What parent becomes friends with someone who physically abused there child.
When I was little, my mom, a single parent was getting $200 some in food stamps monthly. One month, with no income change, it switched to $20 (she had three kids and due to the fact that my dad would purposely throw himself on the floor every two to three years to seem crazy, he didn't have to pay dime on child support for any kids. My aunt told me about him faking his disability at the baby shower I had for my child (which is another level of fucked up). So anyway, my mom calls the food stamp people asking why it dropped, and said people have been calling repetitively saying you have money coming in. Couldn't say who but described one as sounding, southern (my dad) and the other being a female. My mom suspected it was my grandma but didn't confirm it until my grandpa was in a nursing home where he said he walked in on the conversation she was having to people in charge of food stamps. Often what my grandma would due during the $20 food stamp (I was about 7 yrs at the time) was to give us food she had canned. But more often then not the food was moldy, hadn't been canned properly and wasn't edible. You know so my grandma could look like the hero, when really she was the reason there wasnt food in the house. Do you know what you buy when you have less than $40 all together, including the food stamps you can spend on food (in the 90s). There wasn't money going anywhere else, no entertainment money, no going out, not even good will clothes or st Vinny clothes (because we were that poor). Most of my clothes came from my aunt's when I was growing up, or were presents from other relatives. When I was growing up, I was petrified of getting money or anything for Christmas or my birthday because in my mind at like 8 I thought the $20 at most each of my siblings got, might be the reason we end up with less food or that me eating is why we can't afford anything. I didn't understand the abuse and ended up having a very messed up relationship with food as a result, that I'm still trying to overcome. I'm not an emotional eater, I'm an emotional non eater and have to remind my self when something is bothering me that I need to eat still and take care of myself. I used to have to tell myself that I was worthy enough to eat no matter what negative thing I was dealing with (I don't have to convince myself of my worthiness anymore so definite improvement in the last few years). My grandma's reasoning for calling food stamps was so that my would have to get back with my dad (you know the highly d**gerous and abusive relationship) because she thought that was the best my mom could do.
My mom's siblings in the last two years, told my mom that my grandma (their mom) had told them that was mom was evl, she did bad things, she would hrm them, she worshipped the d***l, that she was a pathological liar and shouldn't be trusted and because of how big of a gap in ages (they believed her). My grandma would brag about doing spell work and about how she prayed that my mom would never succeed, or find love or be happy and my grandma bragged that this was common prayed she had.
But that's who's dead now and like I said I know I should feel sad but I'm actually relieved. And I feel better now that I've shared this.
2023.05.31 02:28 401kind I visited my therapist's sister's grave. I feel really awful.
MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ mention of various forms of abuse including SA, mention of suicide in some detail, mention of death
PREFACE
I understand this is the internet and I cannot expect people to have grace or mercy on me for any of this. All I can do is ask that if you’re going to give me your input, that you try and be as kind as possible. My heart is hurting and I really don’t feel I am in a place to hear that I need to entirely -drop- this therapist right now. My background of abuse and trauma will hopefully explain why that is, but I am not ready to let go. I am mostly posting this to vent, but also hoping that if anyone does have any advice that could help me even just in the short term with coping, that it will be gently shared.
BACKGROUND
I will try and keep this as short and sweet as possible but there’s a whole lot of history here. I am 27F, and I grew up in an unimaginably abusive home. Sex trafficking, severe physical, sexual, and emotional abuse from my father and my older brother (very patriarchal family), and a slew of very complicated and scary health issues including a liver disease and cancer. My family set me up to never be able to move out or live independently because they genuinely have viewed me to be their property. The severity of this can hopefully be summed up in just a few example:
This past January, I did the unthinkable. I left my family and got my own apartment. Friends, therapists, coworkers, everyone who remotely knew me has been pushing me to do this for years and I genuinely thought I would die in my situation. I developed severe Stockholm syndrome so a huge part of my lack of leaving was due to my own internal thought patterns. I did it through the help of my current therapist, which is my… fourth? therapist that’s attempted to help. The last ones took advantage of how naive I was and hurt me (one of them has been arrested). This therapist, however, invested everything to get me out. He really wanted to see me free. And I am forever grateful for him.
MY CURRENT THERAPIST & BACKSTORY
I started seeing this therapist early in 2022 when I was still living with my family. I became severely bedridden and could not even go to the bathroom without my mom or dad escorting me. My anxiety and panic were at an all time high. I was on a leave of absence from work, and this therapist was the only reason I had for HAVING to get out of bed and forcing myself to drive, and most days I couldn’t even do that. He was patient, compassionate, and was willing to go to great lengths to help. Though mostly irrelevant, he’s 45M. He got into school for counseling later in life so when I started seeing him, he was just an intern under the director of the practice. At the time, the director of the practice was seeing an old time friend of mine (who happened to recently become my coworker). My friend had gotten concerned about why I wasn’t showing up to work and why I was struggling so much. I didn’t want to open up to her about it because I couldn’t open up to anyone at the time. However, my friend asked the director of the place if she knew anything about me. The director broke into my therapist’s file under the guise of “he is my intern, I can look at his stuff” and then relayed all of that information to my friend. It became an entire case against the state board and I fought tooth and nail to get that director in trouble. In the end, nothing was done and in retaliation, the director fired my therapist and I had to wait until my therapist found a new job in order to see him (he was pre-graduation by just a few weeks so he couldn’t ethically talk to me until he had another practice). During the worst moments of my life, I was without my therapist (no fault of his, and he checked on me frequently), but it was really only for a few weeks. To me that was a lot since I had been going 2-3 times a week, sometimes 4 because of my situation.
THE CRYSTAL AND THE SAGE
My therapist had gone out of town briefly and came back with a crystal he got. He told me when he purchased it he knew he wanted to give it to someone. And he said that it made him think of me and he wants me to have it. He said he wants it to be a reminder that he cares and others care and that it represents my truth to hold close. Months later, he went on another trip and said he got sage that someone gave him that was super special and he wanted me to have it. He was very invested in making sure I felt like he cares and has my back. I was never into spirituality in the same way as him so I respectfully accepted his kindness but kind of scoffed at him. It became more of a joke.
HOW MY BROTHER AND MY THERAPIST STARTED TEXTING
The director of the previous practice had tried to harass me with a fake number, as well as to my therapist. She wanted to try and get us to drop the case, I guess? When I continued to get texts from fake numbers, my therapist asked me to give him the number that was blowing up my phone. It turns out, timing was absolutely terrible. My brother (who moved out of state) was the one who started harassing me. My parents/brother allowed me to go to therapy to “work on my panic attacks” but they began hating the fact that my therapist was helping me become independent. My brother was outraged and texted me anonymously to kill myself. Because I still thought at the time that it was the director of the place, I went ahead and shared the number with my therapist. And that’s how it all began.
THE VIDEO THREATS FROM MY THERAPIST
Things got out of hand over the months. My therapist felt extremely protective of me and a “savior complex” kicked in. The reasoning for this is worth noting / important. My therapist lost his sister to suicide when they were young, and he also lost his father shortly after. His sister apparently had also been assaulted and my therapist had mentioned to me before how he views me as a friend, someone to protect, like a sister. He admitted his struggle with transference and said his main and only concern was to get me to move out of my family’s house. To take a leap of faith. He was desperate to do that. He offered to help me get an apartment near him so he could help me out, he offered to babysit my dog for me (my golden retriever is my emotional support animal that my parents have used as a bargaining chip), he offered to see me in therapy 5 times a week if I just moved. I just wasn’t ready. But my brother would not relent.
My therapist still does not know that I know this, but my brother showed me some of the videos my therapist sent him. Three separate threatening videos. In them, my therapist was shirtless with a ski mask on saying he was part of the FBI and that if my brother didn’t behave himself, that he would have his people come after him. My brother said that I was threatening him and that if I didn’t get this man to stop, it would be trouble. My therapist got extremely activated and decided to take it as a challenge.
My therapist also at some points asked my brother “how to assault me” because he wanted to know what my brother did/wanted him to admit it. But if an outsider saw the texts, it would seem like my therapist was asking to participate in assaulting me. It looked HORRIBLY incriminating.
THE MOVE OUT
I got the courage one night. Drove my dog over to my therapist’s house and moved in with a friend while I apartment hunted. My therapist was incredibly proud of me and poured so much love and care into my dog. I truly felt hopeful and optimistic and I eventually applied for my own apartment and got approved. Because of severe Stockholm syndrome and lack of knowing how to do ANYTHING, I would end up visiting home (somehow, they allowed that and I did not die!)
THE ASSAULT
Long story short (I am not super comfortable going into this part), people from the temple I was sex trafficked in (linked with my family), showed up and assaulted me at gun point in a van. I told my therapist. He was extremely upset on my behalf and called the police. He told me it was essential that I get restraining orders and that I stop going over to my parents house even if I have Stockholm syndrome. He said he could no longer be patient on that because I was actively being attacked. I told him I was still too nervous to go no contact and I could tell he was frustrated with me.
WHEN MY THERAPIST SECRETLY SAT OUTSIDE MY APARTMENT*
My brother / someone from the temple decided to start things up once he figured out the person he was texting earlier was in fact my therapist. He threatened my therapist and challenged him to meet up. My brother was bluffing but my therapist took it seriously. My therapist arranged to meet him outside my apartment at 9pm that night. I had a weird gut feeling so I texted my therapist that night and asked him not to do anything stupid, but I had no idea what he had up his sleeve. Without telling me, my therapist sat outside my apartment waiting for my brother (who never showed) to meet him. Why my therapist chose to meet him RIGHT OUTSIDE my new residence was extremely irresponsible.
I went to take my dog out to the bathroom that night and my friend and I were hanging out. She noticed a dark car with someone sitting and staring with a mask on. We walked closer and it was my therapist. I yelled at him because I was so worried he would’ve gotten shot or attacked and that he would get hurt as a result of trying to fight. My therapist apologized and was so embarrassed. He awkwardly said “you weren’t supposed to know about this…” and drove off full force. We hopped in my friends car and followed him to wherever he tried to run off to. He then promised me he would leave. About 20 mins later, my friend and I decide to go out to get food and we see him sitting in another part of my apartment complex still ready to fight. I was so upset that he lied to me multiple times and that he was risking his life. What would’ve happened if he got attacked? But my therapist apologized again and said “I just need to look him in the eye” implying he was ready to kill.
THE DREAMS ABOUT MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER
As my therapist had told me, his sister had passed away from suicide when they were young. He admitted to have transference in a way where he viewed me in a sisterly way. For a while, I continually had dreams about his sister and it was very weird. I told him I don’t believe in a lot of things like crystals or burning sage but that these dreams felt incredibly vivid. In the dreams, her sister was assuring me that my therapist was sent in my life to be the brother I couldn’t have. That he was sent to me as a brother, and I to him as a sister.
THE HOSPITAL
Just within the span of days after he showed up to my apartment, I was hospitalized due to complications with my liver, and I reached out to my family for help. My therapist was upset with me for interacting with my family at all. My therapist even visited me in the hospital and said that I don’t need to call my family for help and that I have him and my other friends who will have my back. After I was discharged from the hospital, I asked my therapist if I could take my dog back for at least a weekend (he took my dog in while I went to the hospital in order to help me. He said he would hang onto him while I recovered and caught up on rest). So when he gave me my dog for the weekend, out of guilt, I took my dog with me to visit my family. I just felt the need to run back. My dad manipulated me a lot about missing my dog so I felt obligated.
MY THERAPIST’S FRUSTRATION
I admitted to my therapist that I had taken my dog to my parents for the weekend (after I already gave him my dog back). My therapist was so upset about it. He had put so much love and time into my dog and helping me, and then I took him back to the hands of my abusers. This is when him pulling back began. He felt like he was doing all of this extraneous stuff for me and I was just taking steps back.
THE SUICIDE METHOD
As he got over his frustration a little bit, I became very suicidal to the point where I purchased a rope and planned it out. I made him the beneficiary of my bank accounts as a thank you to him for everything. He told me he would do what he could to help me. He said I could bring my dog back to him if I just need a life break. He didn’t know I had the rope but he knew I was thinking suicide. When I went back to drop my dog off, I admitted I had a rope. I gave it to him. He realized I was genuinely going to kill myself and was so grateful I told him the truth. He told me he would be there for me to help me through it. Showed me grace and compassion and everything.
THE MAJOR PULLBACK
No warning. No indication. My therapist immediately pulled back. Hard. He told me to call him later that week (I usually have therapy 3x a week but he was out of town), and so I did as he said and called him to update him. He immediately flipped out. “Ugh, I cannot be in anything extra to your therapy space. I am going through things on my own and I need to pull back. I can’t take calls any hour of the day anymore. I can’t take your dog. You don’t even listen to me anyway. You do what you want and go to your parents. So, I don’t know what to say. I am committed to you as your therapist but that’s it. If you feel suicidal outside of that, go to a hospital and get sedated.” I was absolutely crushed and felt so awful and guilty like I did something wrong. I didn’t want to bother him. I didn’t want to lose him. He made me feel loved and cared for (platonically, as a brother) and I felt so safe with him. Until this moment. He was very hung up on the fact that I kept going home to my family despite his efforts.
After calming down he explained how he feels like he needs to step back because his emotions shouldn’t affect my therapy and that he’s doing it to help me. But it felt very selfish. He over exerted himself by showing up to my apartment and sending threatening videos when I never asked for it, all because HE wanted to. And now he pulls back because HE wants to. None of his decisions were based on what I would feel, but what would best serve him.
THE RELAPSE AND THE DREAMS
Because my therapist stepped back so hard, I relapsed and said “screw it” / went back to my parents. I still had my apartment but I backslid majorly.
During this time I was so distraught. This therapist made me feel supported. And no, I didn’t attach onto him in an unhealthy way where he became my only hope. But he did feel like the brother I wished I had, and he felt like such a deep and important part of my life and I was devastated.
I started having dreams again about his sister and I cried. I felt like I was given this gift and then it was taken away.
THE BACK AND FORTH
My therapist began telling me that he thinks I should have additional support in this season especially while he “takes a break from extraneous stuff” with me. He said when he was younger and going through things, he had two therapists.
A week later I told him I found a second therapist and he said: “ummm I don’t know. I feel protective over that. Maybe don’t get a second one. Find a support group but I don’t want you seeing another one.”
I stood my ground and said I might still find one and he said “well then make sure the other one is a woman and is closely in touch with me.”
It felt very wishy washy and he did a lot of similar things like this for a while.
But when I listened to him and decided against a second therapist, he pulled back again. He said he wouldn’t take any more texts or calls outside of session once again and made me feel like an obsessed freak when I wasn’t even really doing much at all. Or asking for anything.
VISITING MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER’S GRAVE
My therapist is a famous author and singesong writer. Online, it’s very easy to find his sister’s name and I did some digging and found out where her grave is located. I was feeling really awful, like I was grieving the loss myself which is so incredibly psychotic. I know. But it more so felt like I was grieving the loss of this brotherly love I once felt from my therapist. But it’s been a couple months at this point and he still refuses to take texts or calls, and is very argumentative and angry in sessions. And I just wanted to take some flowers to the grave in private, not tell him, and just accept that he can’t be what I needed him to be for me.
MY FAMILY FINDS OUT
When I went to the cemetery, the place was huge. So I had to go into the office and ask for the location of his sister’s grave. They gave me a piece of paper with her name and grave location on it and I eventually just threw it in my wallet. My dad stumbled upon my wallet while I was at home one of the days and noticed the last name and asked me if I was still seeing my therapist. They don’t like him for obvious reasons. But I admitted to my parents that I do still see my therapist and that he’s more like family than they’d ever be. They abused me. But I stood in my truth. At the end of the day I will not deny that my therapist DID help me immensely and if that means I have to be abused for the truth, I’ll do it.
MY THERAPIST INSISTS ON INFORMATION
He knew that I was hiding something. I told him my family was abusive again but I didn’t say why. He spent an entire session saying he needs to know what happened. I said no multiple times and that I didn’t want to talk about it. He used language like “you have to tell me before you leave my office” and “if you care so much about me you’ll tell me.” He even told me he was going to take my hand and promise me that he won’t react. He held it and looked me in the eye and promised he’d meet me with compassion. I refused. He then asked me if I’ve been lying to him. Deceptive. It broke me and I felt like it was just such an insult. But I stayed strong and he apologized for bothering me about it.
Last week comes around and it feels like such a hindrance. He’s continuing to be short with me and not answer my texts, not taking emergency calls, and just… is continuing to be cold. I even texted him that I was genuinely feeling suicidal and he told me he can’t help me outside of session. Period.
So then after my latest session, I told him I’d text him what happened because I was too uncomfortable to say it. I told him I visited his sister’s grave, about the dreams, everything. I said I felt really hurt at his pullback and how it felt selfish.
He responded by gaslighting me endlessly and it absolutely crushed me furthermore. He responded as follows:
“Ok crystals and dreams? I don’t believe in them. I don’t believe that was my sister. I don’t know how I feel about you visiting her grave. I am not your brother and I can’t be your brother. And yes it was a nice gesture I guess but clearly you are focusing on the wrong thing. Let’s not talk about the weeds and the details. Let’s focus on you.” And completely shut down any further conversation about it.
In the past I have insisted and begged him to process him showing up at my apartment with me because I am still shaken up. He just always says “I never should’ve gotten involved like that but we are NOT going to talk about this ever again” and has always refused to hear how I felt about it.
He went back on vacation this past weekend and refused to take my call when I needed help, refused to text me, or anything. I called off work two days in a row because I was so devastated at his anger toward me and the gaslighting. It felt so unfair. I wanted to talk to him over the weekend because I was genuinely so hurt and felt like I truly lost him. He didn’t care.
WHERE TO GO FROM HERE?
I had an appointment in person tonight. First in person one since I told him about everything. I am embarrassed and feel so guilty that I visited his sister’s grave behind his back. It makes me feel psychotic. But at least I was honest and didn’t wait until I got caught / did not gaslight him.
I have a major surgery tomorrow and he won’t help me with my dog. I’ve gone back to my parents for now until I am recovered.
I want to tell him how hurt I am but I have tried that. He never understands. I miss him. As a brother.
I ended up going to session and he asked me why I feel off in therapy. He literally said “other than me slightly having to pull back right now what have I really done?”
I don’t know if I ever can get him to see my side or my pain in this.
FINAL THOUGHTS
Again I know the majority of people will want to come at my therapist or me for doing wrong things. I know it doesn’t seem like this, but he really isn’t intentionally manipulative or gaslight-y, he’s just trying to regulate himself.
I have grace for him. And for myself. So please, please try and respond with compassion. I don’t want to lose him. But I feel like I kind of am.
What are your overall thoughts, in the most gentle way possible? Was I wrong for telling him the truth about the grave?
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PREFACE
I understand this is the internet and I cannot expect people to have grace or mercy on me for any of this. All I can do is ask that if you’re going to give me your input, that you try and be as kind as possible. My heart is hurting and I really don’t feel I am in a place to hear that I need to entirely -drop- this therapist right now. My background of abuse and trauma will hopefully explain why that is, but I am not ready to let go. I am mostly posting this to vent, but also hoping that if anyone does have any advice that could help me even just in the short term with coping, that it will be gently shared.
BACKGROUND
I will try and keep this as short and sweet as possible but there’s a whole lot of history here. I am 27F, and I grew up in an unimaginably abusive home. Sex trafficking, severe physical, sexual, and emotional abuse from my father and my older brother (very patriarchal family), and a slew of very complicated and scary health issues including a liver disease and cancer. My family set me up to never be able to move out or live independently because they genuinely have viewed me to be their property. The severity of this can hopefully be summed up in just a few example:
• Was never allowed to even get myself a glass of water in the kitchen or learn to cook • Was not potty trained and had to rely on my mom to go to the bathroom into my teenage years • Drinking only from sippy cups until teenage years • Location monitored on my phone • Every credit card transaction / finance watched closely • Could not move away from collegeMy brother was allowed and able to do all these things, but I was not. My entire life, teachers and “adults” that were supposed to catch these things did not even bat an eye. They instead placed me in remedial classes and ESL assuming that I just had a learning disability or a language barrier (which I do not). When I told teachers in the past about my abuse, it was handled extremely poorly and no authorities ever got involved. My life felt worthless; meaningless. Like I could scream from the rooftops of my school that I was being abused and no one cared.
This past January, I did the unthinkable. I left my family and got my own apartment. Friends, therapists, coworkers, everyone who remotely knew me has been pushing me to do this for years and I genuinely thought I would die in my situation. I developed severe Stockholm syndrome so a huge part of my lack of leaving was due to my own internal thought patterns. I did it through the help of my current therapist, which is my… fourth? therapist that’s attempted to help. The last ones took advantage of how naive I was and hurt me (one of them has been arrested). This therapist, however, invested everything to get me out. He really wanted to see me free. And I am forever grateful for him.
MY CURRENT THERAPIST & BACKSTORY
I started seeing this therapist early in 2022 when I was still living with my family. I became severely bedridden and could not even go to the bathroom without my mom or dad escorting me. My anxiety and panic were at an all time high. I was on a leave of absence from work, and this therapist was the only reason I had for HAVING to get out of bed and forcing myself to drive, and most days I couldn’t even do that. He was patient, compassionate, and was willing to go to great lengths to help. Though mostly irrelevant, he’s 45M. He got into school for counseling later in life so when I started seeing him, he was just an intern under the director of the practice. At the time, the director of the practice was seeing an old time friend of mine (who happened to recently become my coworker). My friend had gotten concerned about why I wasn’t showing up to work and why I was struggling so much. I didn’t want to open up to her about it because I couldn’t open up to anyone at the time. However, my friend asked the director of the place if she knew anything about me. The director broke into my therapist’s file under the guise of “he is my intern, I can look at his stuff” and then relayed all of that information to my friend. It became an entire case against the state board and I fought tooth and nail to get that director in trouble. In the end, nothing was done and in retaliation, the director fired my therapist and I had to wait until my therapist found a new job in order to see him (he was pre-graduation by just a few weeks so he couldn’t ethically talk to me until he had another practice). During the worst moments of my life, I was without my therapist (no fault of his, and he checked on me frequently), but it was really only for a few weeks. To me that was a lot since I had been going 2-3 times a week, sometimes 4 because of my situation.
THE CRYSTAL AND THE SAGE
My therapist had gone out of town briefly and came back with a crystal he got. He told me when he purchased it he knew he wanted to give it to someone. And he said that it made him think of me and he wants me to have it. He said he wants it to be a reminder that he cares and others care and that it represents my truth to hold close. Months later, he went on another trip and said he got sage that someone gave him that was super special and he wanted me to have it. He was very invested in making sure I felt like he cares and has my back. I was never into spirituality in the same way as him so I respectfully accepted his kindness but kind of scoffed at him. It became more of a joke.
HOW MY BROTHER AND MY THERAPIST STARTED TEXTING
The director of the previous practice had tried to harass me with a fake number, as well as to my therapist. She wanted to try and get us to drop the case, I guess? When I continued to get texts from fake numbers, my therapist asked me to give him the number that was blowing up my phone. It turns out, timing was absolutely terrible. My brother (who moved out of state) was the one who started harassing me. My parents/brother allowed me to go to therapy to “work on my panic attacks” but they began hating the fact that my therapist was helping me become independent. My brother was outraged and texted me anonymously to kill myself. Because I still thought at the time that it was the director of the place, I went ahead and shared the number with my therapist. And that’s how it all began.
THE VIDEO THREATS FROM MY THERAPIST
Things got out of hand over the months. My therapist felt extremely protective of me and a “savior complex” kicked in. The reasoning for this is worth noting / important. My therapist lost his sister to suicide when they were young, and he also lost his father shortly after. His sister apparently had also been assaulted and my therapist had mentioned to me before how he views me as a friend, someone to protect, like a sister. He admitted his struggle with transference and said his main and only concern was to get me to move out of my family’s house. To take a leap of faith. He was desperate to do that. He offered to help me get an apartment near him so he could help me out, he offered to babysit my dog for me (my golden retriever is my emotional support animal that my parents have used as a bargaining chip), he offered to see me in therapy 5 times a week if I just moved. I just wasn’t ready. But my brother would not relent.
My therapist still does not know that I know this, but my brother showed me some of the videos my therapist sent him. Three separate threatening videos. In them, my therapist was shirtless with a ski mask on saying he was part of the FBI and that if my brother didn’t behave himself, that he would have his people come after him. My brother said that I was threatening him and that if I didn’t get this man to stop, it would be trouble. My therapist got extremely activated and decided to take it as a challenge.
My therapist also at some points asked my brother “how to assault me” because he wanted to know what my brother did/wanted him to admit it. But if an outsider saw the texts, it would seem like my therapist was asking to participate in assaulting me. It looked HORRIBLY incriminating.
THE MOVE OUT
I got the courage one night. Drove my dog over to my therapist’s house and moved in with a friend while I apartment hunted. My therapist was incredibly proud of me and poured so much love and care into my dog. I truly felt hopeful and optimistic and I eventually applied for my own apartment and got approved. Because of severe Stockholm syndrome and lack of knowing how to do ANYTHING, I would end up visiting home (somehow, they allowed that and I did not die!)
THE ASSAULT
Long story short (I am not super comfortable going into this part), people from the temple I was sex trafficked in (linked with my family), showed up and assaulted me at gun point in a van. I told my therapist. He was extremely upset on my behalf and called the police. He told me it was essential that I get restraining orders and that I stop going over to my parents house even if I have Stockholm syndrome. He said he could no longer be patient on that because I was actively being attacked. I told him I was still too nervous to go no contact and I could tell he was frustrated with me.
WHEN MY THERAPIST SECRETLY SAT OUTSIDE MY APARTMENT*
My brother / someone from the temple decided to start things up once he figured out the person he was texting earlier was in fact my therapist. He threatened my therapist and challenged him to meet up. My brother was bluffing but my therapist took it seriously. My therapist arranged to meet him outside my apartment at 9pm that night. I had a weird gut feeling so I texted my therapist that night and asked him not to do anything stupid, but I had no idea what he had up his sleeve. Without telling me, my therapist sat outside my apartment waiting for my brother (who never showed) to meet him. Why my therapist chose to meet him RIGHT OUTSIDE my new residence was extremely irresponsible.
I went to take my dog out to the bathroom that night and my friend and I were hanging out. She noticed a dark car with someone sitting and staring with a mask on. We walked closer and it was my therapist. I yelled at him because I was so worried he would’ve gotten shot or attacked and that he would get hurt as a result of trying to fight. My therapist apologized and was so embarrassed. He awkwardly said “you weren’t supposed to know about this…” and drove off full force. We hopped in my friends car and followed him to wherever he tried to run off to. He then promised me he would leave. About 20 mins later, my friend and I decide to go out to get food and we see him sitting in another part of my apartment complex still ready to fight. I was so upset that he lied to me multiple times and that he was risking his life. What would’ve happened if he got attacked? But my therapist apologized again and said “I just need to look him in the eye” implying he was ready to kill.
THE DREAMS ABOUT MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER
As my therapist had told me, his sister had passed away from suicide when they were young. He admitted to have transference in a way where he viewed me in a sisterly way. For a while, I continually had dreams about his sister and it was very weird. I told him I don’t believe in a lot of things like crystals or burning sage but that these dreams felt incredibly vivid. In the dreams, her sister was assuring me that my therapist was sent in my life to be the brother I couldn’t have. That he was sent to me as a brother, and I to him as a sister.
THE HOSPITAL
Just within the span of days after he showed up to my apartment, I was hospitalized due to complications with my liver, and I reached out to my family for help. My therapist was upset with me for interacting with my family at all. My therapist even visited me in the hospital and said that I don’t need to call my family for help and that I have him and my other friends who will have my back. After I was discharged from the hospital, I asked my therapist if I could take my dog back for at least a weekend (he took my dog in while I went to the hospital in order to help me. He said he would hang onto him while I recovered and caught up on rest). So when he gave me my dog for the weekend, out of guilt, I took my dog with me to visit my family. I just felt the need to run back. My dad manipulated me a lot about missing my dog so I felt obligated.
MY THERAPIST’S FRUSTRATION
I admitted to my therapist that I had taken my dog to my parents for the weekend (after I already gave him my dog back). My therapist was so upset about it. He had put so much love and time into my dog and helping me, and then I took him back to the hands of my abusers. This is when him pulling back began. He felt like he was doing all of this extraneous stuff for me and I was just taking steps back.
THE SUICIDE METHOD
As he got over his frustration a little bit, I became very suicidal to the point where I purchased a rope and planned it out. I made him the beneficiary of my bank accounts as a thank you to him for everything. He told me he would do what he could to help me. He said I could bring my dog back to him if I just need a life break. He didn’t know I had the rope but he knew I was thinking suicide. When I went back to drop my dog off, I admitted I had a rope. I gave it to him. He realized I was genuinely going to kill myself and was so grateful I told him the truth. He told me he would be there for me to help me through it. Showed me grace and compassion and everything.
THE MAJOR PULLBACK
No warning. No indication. My therapist immediately pulled back. Hard. He told me to call him later that week (I usually have therapy 3x a week but he was out of town), and so I did as he said and called him to update him. He immediately flipped out. “Ugh, I cannot be in anything extra to your therapy space. I am going through things on my own and I need to pull back. I can’t take calls any hour of the day anymore. I can’t take your dog. You don’t even listen to me anyway. You do what you want and go to your parents. So, I don’t know what to say. I am committed to you as your therapist but that’s it. If you feel suicidal outside of that, go to a hospital and get sedated.” I was absolutely crushed and felt so awful and guilty like I did something wrong. I didn’t want to bother him. I didn’t want to lose him. He made me feel loved and cared for (platonically, as a brother) and I felt so safe with him. Until this moment. He was very hung up on the fact that I kept going home to my family despite his efforts.
After calming down he explained how he feels like he needs to step back because his emotions shouldn’t affect my therapy and that he’s doing it to help me. But it felt very selfish. He over exerted himself by showing up to my apartment and sending threatening videos when I never asked for it, all because HE wanted to. And now he pulls back because HE wants to. None of his decisions were based on what I would feel, but what would best serve him.
THE RELAPSE AND THE DREAMS
Because my therapist stepped back so hard, I relapsed and said “screw it” / went back to my parents. I still had my apartment but I backslid majorly.
During this time I was so distraught. This therapist made me feel supported. And no, I didn’t attach onto him in an unhealthy way where he became my only hope. But he did feel like the brother I wished I had, and he felt like such a deep and important part of my life and I was devastated.
I started having dreams again about his sister and I cried. I felt like I was given this gift and then it was taken away.
THE BACK AND FORTH
My therapist began telling me that he thinks I should have additional support in this season especially while he “takes a break from extraneous stuff” with me. He said when he was younger and going through things, he had two therapists.
A week later I told him I found a second therapist and he said: “ummm I don’t know. I feel protective over that. Maybe don’t get a second one. Find a support group but I don’t want you seeing another one.”
I stood my ground and said I might still find one and he said “well then make sure the other one is a woman and is closely in touch with me.”
It felt very wishy washy and he did a lot of similar things like this for a while.
But when I listened to him and decided against a second therapist, he pulled back again. He said he wouldn’t take any more texts or calls outside of session once again and made me feel like an obsessed freak when I wasn’t even really doing much at all. Or asking for anything.
VISITING MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER’S GRAVE
My therapist is a famous author and singesong writer. Online, it’s very easy to find his sister’s name and I did some digging and found out where her grave is located. I was feeling really awful, like I was grieving the loss myself which is so incredibly psychotic. I know. But it more so felt like I was grieving the loss of this brotherly love I once felt from my therapist. But it’s been a couple months at this point and he still refuses to take texts or calls, and is very argumentative and angry in sessions. And I just wanted to take some flowers to the grave in private, not tell him, and just accept that he can’t be what I needed him to be for me.
MY FAMILY FINDS OUT
When I went to the cemetery, the place was huge. So I had to go into the office and ask for the location of his sister’s grave. They gave me a piece of paper with her name and grave location on it and I eventually just threw it in my wallet. My dad stumbled upon my wallet while I was at home one of the days and noticed the last name and asked me if I was still seeing my therapist. They don’t like him for obvious reasons. But I admitted to my parents that I do still see my therapist and that he’s more like family than they’d ever be. They abused me. But I stood in my truth. At the end of the day I will not deny that my therapist DID help me immensely and if that means I have to be abused for the truth, I’ll do it.
MY THERAPIST INSISTS ON INFORMATION
He knew that I was hiding something. I told him my family was abusive again but I didn’t say why. He spent an entire session saying he needs to know what happened. I said no multiple times and that I didn’t want to talk about it. He used language like “you have to tell me before you leave my office” and “if you care so much about me you’ll tell me.” He even told me he was going to take my hand and promise me that he won’t react. He held it and looked me in the eye and promised he’d meet me with compassion. I refused. He then asked me if I’ve been lying to him. Deceptive. It broke me and I felt like it was just such an insult. But I stayed strong and he apologized for bothering me about it.
Last week comes around and it feels like such a hindrance. He’s continuing to be short with me and not answer my texts, not taking emergency calls, and just… is continuing to be cold. I even texted him that I was genuinely feeling suicidal and he told me he can’t help me outside of session. Period.
So then after my latest session, I told him I’d text him what happened because I was too uncomfortable to say it. I told him I visited his sister’s grave, about the dreams, everything. I said I felt really hurt at his pullback and how it felt selfish.
He responded by gaslighting me endlessly and it absolutely crushed me furthermore. He responded as follows:
“Ok crystals and dreams? I don’t believe in them. I don’t believe that was my sister. I don’t know how I feel about you visiting her grave. I am not your brother and I can’t be your brother. And yes it was a nice gesture I guess but clearly you are focusing on the wrong thing. Let’s not talk about the weeds and the details. Let’s focus on you.” And completely shut down any further conversation about it.
In the past I have insisted and begged him to process him showing up at my apartment with me because I am still shaken up. He just always says “I never should’ve gotten involved like that but we are NOT going to talk about this ever again” and has always refused to hear how I felt about it.
He went back on vacation this past weekend and refused to take my call when I needed help, refused to text me, or anything. I called off work two days in a row because I was so devastated at his anger toward me and the gaslighting. It felt so unfair. I wanted to talk to him over the weekend because I was genuinely so hurt and felt like I truly lost him. He didn’t care.
WHERE TO GO FROM HERE?
I had an appointment in person tonight. First in person one since I told him about everything. I am embarrassed and feel so guilty that I visited his sister’s grave behind his back. It makes me feel psychotic. But at least I was honest and didn’t wait until I got caught / did not gaslight him.
I have a major surgery tomorrow and he won’t help me with my dog. I’ve gone back to my parents for now until I am recovered.
I want to tell him how hurt I am but I have tried that. He never understands. I miss him. As a brother.
I ended up going to session and he asked me why I feel off in therapy. He literally said “other than me slightly having to pull back right now what have I really done?”
I don’t know if I ever can get him to see my side or my pain in this.
FINAL THOUGHTS
Again I know the majority of people will want to come at my therapist or me for doing wrong things. I know it doesn’t seem like this, but he really isn’t intentionally manipulative or gaslight-y, he’s just trying to regulate himself.
I have grace for him. And for myself. So please, please try and respond with compassion. I don’t want to lose him. But I feel like I kind of am.
What are your overall thoughts, in the most gentle way possible? Was I wrong for telling him the truth about the grave?
2023.05.31 02:17 401kind I visited my therapist's sister's grave. I just feel hurt by everything.
MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ mention of various forms of abuse including SA, mention of suicide in some detail, mention of death
PREFACE
I understand this is the internet and I cannot expect people to have grace or mercy on me for any of this. All I can do is ask that if you’re going to give me your input, that you try and be as kind as possible. My heart is hurting and I really don’t feel I am in a place to hear that I need to entirely -drop- this therapist right now. My background of abuse and trauma will hopefully explain why that is, but I am not ready to let go. I am mostly posting this to vent, but also hoping that if anyone does have any advice that could help me even just in the short term with coping, that it will be gently shared.
BACKGROUND
I will try and keep this as short and sweet as possible but there’s a whole lot of history here. I am 27F, and I grew up in an unimaginably abusive home. Sex trafficking, severe physical, sexual, and emotional abuse from my father and my older brother (very patriarchal family), and a slew of very complicated and scary health issues including a liver disease and cancer. My family set me up to never be able to move out or live independently because they genuinely have viewed me to be their property. The severity of this can hopefully be summed up in just a few example:
This past January, I did the unthinkable. I left my family and got my own apartment. Friends, therapists, coworkers, everyone who remotely knew me has been pushing me to do this for years and I genuinely thought I would die in my situation. I developed severe Stockholm syndrome so a huge part of my lack of leaving was due to my own internal thought patterns. I did it through the help of my current therapist, which is my… fourth? therapist that’s attempted to help. The last ones took advantage of how naive I was and hurt me (one of them has been arrested). This therapist, however, invested everything to get me out. He really wanted to see me free. And I am forever grateful for him.
MY CURRENT THERAPIST & BACKSTORY
I started seeing this therapist early in 2022 when I was still living with my family. I became severely bedridden and could not even go to the bathroom without my mom or dad escorting me. My anxiety and panic were at an all time high. I was on a leave of absence from work, and this therapist was the only reason I had for HAVING to get out of bed and forcing myself to drive, and most days I couldn’t even do that. He was patient, compassionate, and was willing to go to great lengths to help. Though mostly irrelevant, he’s 45M. He got into school for counseling later in life so when I started seeing him, he was just an intern under the director of the practice. At the time, the director of the practice was seeing an old time friend of mine (who happened to recently become my coworker). My friend had gotten concerned about why I wasn’t showing up to work and why I was struggling so much. I didn’t want to open up to her about it because I couldn’t open up to anyone at the time. However, my friend asked the director of the place if she knew anything about me. The director broke into my therapist’s file under the guise of “he is my intern, I can look at his stuff” and then relayed all of that information to my friend. It became an entire case against the state board and I fought tooth and nail to get that director in trouble. In the end, nothing was done and in retaliation, the director fired my therapist and I had to wait until my therapist found a new job in order to see him (he was pre-graduation by just a few weeks so he couldn’t ethically talk to me until he had another practice). During the worst moments of my life, I was without my therapist (no fault of his, and he checked on me frequently), but it was really only for a few weeks. To me that was a lot since I had been going 2-3 times a week, sometimes 4 because of my situation.
THE CRYSTAL AND THE SAGE
My therapist had gone out of town briefly and came back with a crystal he got. He told me when he purchased it he knew he wanted to give it to someone. And he said that it made him think of me and he wants me to have it. He said he wants it to be a reminder that he cares and others care and that it represents my truth to hold close. Months later, he went on another trip and said he got sage that someone gave him that was super special and he wanted me to have it. He was very invested in making sure I felt like he cares and has my back. I was never into spirituality in the same way as him so I respectfully accepted his kindness but kind of scoffed at him. It became more of a joke.
HOW MY BROTHER AND MY THERAPIST STARTED TEXTING
The director of the previous practice had tried to harass me with a fake number, as well as to my therapist. She wanted to try and get us to drop the case, I guess? When I continued to get texts from fake numbers, my therapist asked me to give him the number that was blowing up my phone. It turns out, timing was absolutely terrible. My brother (who moved out of state) was the one who started harassing me. My parents/brother allowed me to go to therapy to “work on my panic attacks” but they began hating the fact that my therapist was helping me become independent. My brother was outraged and texted me anonymously to kill myself. Because I still thought at the time that it was the director of the place, I went ahead and shared the number with my therapist. And that’s how it all began.
THE VIDEO THREATS FROM MY THERAPIST
Things got out of hand over the months. My therapist felt extremely protective of me and a “savior complex” kicked in. The reasoning for this is worth noting / important. My therapist lost his sister to suicide when they were young, and he also lost his father shortly after. His sister apparently had also been assaulted and my therapist had mentioned to me before how he views me as a friend, someone to protect, like a sister. He admitted his struggle with transference and said his main and only concern was to get me to move out of my family’s house. To take a leap of faith. He was desperate to do that. He offered to help me get an apartment near him so he could help me out, he offered to babysit my dog for me (my golden retriever is my emotional support animal that my parents have used as a bargaining chip), he offered to see me in therapy 5 times a week if I just moved. I just wasn’t ready. But my brother would not relent.
My therapist still does not know that I know this, but my brother showed me some of the videos my therapist sent him. Three separate threatening videos. In them, my therapist was shirtless with a ski mask on saying he was part of the FBI and that if my brother didn’t behave himself, that he would have his people come after him. My brother said that I was threatening him and that if I didn’t get this man to stop, it would be trouble. My therapist got extremely activated and decided to take it as a challenge.
My therapist also at some points asked my brother “how to assault me” because he wanted to know what my brother did/wanted him to admit it. But if an outsider saw the texts, it would seem like my therapist was asking to participate in assaulting me. It looked HORRIBLY incriminating.
THE MOVE OUT
I got the courage one night. Drove my dog over to my therapist’s house and moved in with a friend while I apartment hunted. My therapist was incredibly proud of me and poured so much love and care into my dog. I truly felt hopeful and optimistic and I eventually applied for my own apartment and got approved. Because of severe Stockholm syndrome and lack of knowing how to do ANYTHING, I would end up visiting home (somehow, they allowed that and I did not die!)
THE ASSAULT
Long story short (I am not super comfortable going into this part), people from the temple I was sex trafficked in (linked with my family), showed up and assaulted me at gun point in a van. I told my therapist. He was extremely upset on my behalf and called the police. He told me it was essential that I get restraining orders and that I stop going over to my parents house even if I have Stockholm syndrome. He said he could no longer be patient on that because I was actively being attacked. I told him I was still too nervous to go no contact and I could tell he was frustrated with me.
WHEN MY THERAPIST SECRETLY SAT OUTSIDE MY APARTMENT
My brother / someone from the temple decided to start things up once he figured out the person he was texting earlier was in fact my therapist. He threatened my therapist and challenged him to meet up. My brother was bluffing but my therapist took it seriously. My therapist arranged to meet him outside my apartment at 9pm that night. I had a weird gut feeling so I texted my therapist that night and asked him not to do anything stupid, but I had no idea what he had up his sleeve. Without telling me, my therapist sat outside my apartment waiting for my brother (who never showed) to meet him. Why my therapist chose to meet him RIGHT OUTSIDE my new residence was extremely irresponsible.
I went to take my dog out to the bathroom that night and my friend and I were hanging out. She noticed a dark car with someone sitting and staring with a mask on. We walked closer and it was my therapist. I yelled at him because I was so worried he would’ve gotten shot or attacked and that he would get hurt as a result of trying to fight. My therapist apologized and was so embarrassed. He awkwardly said “you weren’t supposed to know about this…” and drove off full force. We hopped in my friends car and followed him to wherever he tried to run off to. He then promised me he would leave. About 20 mins later, my friend and I decide to go out to get food and we see him sitting in another part of my apartment complex still ready to fight. I was so upset that he lied to me multiple times and that he was risking his life. What would’ve happened if he got attacked? But my therapist apologized again and said “I just need to look him in the eye” implying he was ready to kill.
THE DREAMS ABOUT MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER
As my therapist had told me, his sister had passed away from suicide when they were young. He admitted to have transference in a way where he viewed me in a sisterly way. For a while, I continually had dreams about his sister and it was very weird. I told him I don’t believe in a lot of things like crystals or burning sage but that these dreams felt incredibly vivid. In the dreams, her sister was assuring me that my therapist was sent in my life to be the brother I couldn’t have. That he was sent to me as a brother, and I to him as a sister.
THE HOSPITAL
Just within the span of days after he showed up to my apartment, I was hospitalized due to complications with my liver, and I reached out to my family for help. My therapist was upset with me for interacting with my family at all. My therapist even visited me in the hospital and said that I don’t need to call my family for help and that I have him and my other friends who will have my back. After I was discharged from the hospital, I asked my therapist if I could take my dog back for at least a weekend (he took my dog in while I went to the hospital in order to help me. He said he would hang onto him while I recovered and caught up on rest). So when he gave me my dog for the weekend, out of guilt, I took my dog with me to visit my family. I just felt the need to run back. My dad manipulated me a lot about missing my dog so I felt obligated.
MY THERAPIST’S FRUSTRATION
I admitted to my therapist that I had taken my dog to my parents for the weekend (after I already gave him my dog back). My therapist was so upset about it. He had put so much love and time into my dog and helping me, and then I took him back to the hands of my abusers. This is when him pulling back began. He felt like he was doing all of this extraneous stuff for me and I was just taking steps back.
THE SUICIDE METHOD
As he got over his frustration a little bit, I became very suicidal to the point where I purchased a rope and planned it out. I made him the beneficiary of my bank accounts as a thank you to him for everything. He told me he would do what he could to help me. He said I could bring my dog back to him if I just need a life break. He didn’t know I had the rope but he knew I was thinking suicide. When I went back to drop my dog off, I admitted I had a rope. I gave it to him. He realized I was genuinely going to kill myself and was so grateful I told him the truth. He told me he would be there for me to help me through it. Showed me grace and compassion and everything.
THE MAJOR PULLBACK
No warning. No indication. My therapist immediately pulled back. Hard. He told me to call him later that week (I usually have therapy 3x a week but he was out of town), and so I did as he said and called him to update him. He immediately flipped out. “Ugh, I cannot be in anything extra to your therapy space. I am going through things on my own and I need to pull back. I can’t take calls any hour of the day anymore. I can’t take your dog. You don’t even listen to me anyway. You do what you want and go to your parents. So, I don’t know what to say. I am committed to you as your therapist but that’s it. If you feel suicidal outside of that, go to a hospital and get sedated.” I was absolutely crushed and felt so awful and guilty like I did something wrong. I didn’t want to bother him. I didn’t want to lose him. He made me feel loved and cared for (platonically, as a brother) and I felt so safe with him. Until this moment. He was very hung up on the fact that I kept going home to my family despite his efforts.
After calming down he explained how he feels like he needs to step back because his emotions shouldn’t affect my therapy and that he’s doing it to help me. But it felt very selfish. He over exerted himself by showing up to my apartment and sending threatening videos when I never asked for it, all because HE wanted to. And now he pulls back because HE wants to. None of his decisions were based on what I would feel, but what would best serve him.
THE RELAPSE AND THE DREAMS
Because my therapist stepped back so hard, I relapsed and said “screw it” / went back to my parents. I still had my apartment but I backslid majorly.
During this time I was so distraught. This therapist made me feel supported. And no, I didn’t attach onto him in an unhealthy way where he became my only hope. But he did feel like the brother I wished I had, and he felt like such a deep and important part of my life and I was devastated.
I started having dreams again about his sister and I cried. I felt like I was given this gift and then it was taken away.
THE BACK AND FORTH
My therapist began telling me that he thinks I should have additional support in this season especially while he “takes a break from extraneous stuff” with me. He said when he was younger and going through things, he had two therapists.
A week later I told him I found a second therapist and he said: “ummm I don’t know. I feel protective over that. Maybe don’t get a second one. Find a support group but I don’t want you seeing another one.”
I stood my ground and said I might still find one and he said “well then make sure the other one is a woman and is closely in touch with me.”
It felt very wishy washy and he did a lot of similar things like this for a while.
But when I listened to him and decided against a second therapist, he pulled back again. He said he wouldn’t take any more texts or calls outside of session once again and made me feel like an obsessed freak when I wasn’t even really doing much at all. Or asking for anything.
VISITING MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER’S GRAVE
My therapist is a famous author and singesong writer. Online, it’s very easy to find his sister’s name and I did some digging and found out where her grave is located. I was feeling really awful, like I was grieving the loss myself which is so incredibly psychotic. I know. But it more so felt like I was grieving the loss of this brotherly love I once felt from my therapist. But it’s been a couple months at this point and he still refuses to take texts or calls, and is very argumentative and angry in sessions. And I just wanted to take some flowers to the grave in private, not tell him, and just accept that he can’t be what I needed him to be for me.
MY FAMILY FINDS OUT
When I went to the cemetery, the place was huge. So I had to go into the office and ask for the location of his sister’s grave. They gave me a piece of paper with her name and grave location on it and I eventually just threw it in my wallet. My dad stumbled upon my wallet while I was at home one of the days and noticed the last name and asked me if I was still seeing my therapist. They don’t like him for obvious reasons. But I admitted to my parents that I do still see my therapist and that he’s more like family than they’d ever be. They abused me. But I stood in my truth. At the end of the day I will not deny that my therapist DID help me immensely and if that means I have to be abused for the truth, I’ll do it.
MY THERAPIST INSISTS ON INFORMATION
He knew that I was hiding something. I told him my family was abusive again but I didn’t say why. He spent an entire session saying he needs to know what happened. I said no multiple times and that I didn’t want to talk about it. He used language like “you have to tell me before you leave my office” and “if you care so much about me you’ll tell me.” He even told me he was going to take my hand and promise me that he won’t react. He held it and looked me in the eye and promised he’d meet me with compassion. I refused. He then asked me if I’ve been lying to him. Deceptive. It broke me and I felt like it was just such an insult. But I stayed strong and he apologized for bothering me about it.
Last week comes around and it feels like such a hindrance. He’s continuing to be short with me and not answer my texts, not taking emergency calls, and just… is continuing to be cold. I even texted him that I was genuinely feeling suicidal and he told me he can’t help me outside of session. Period.
So then after my latest session, I told him I’d text him what happened because I was too uncomfortable to say it. I told him I visited his sister’s grave, about the dreams, everything. I said I felt really hurt at his pullback and how it felt selfish.
He responded by gaslighting me endlessly and it absolutely crushed me furthermore. He responded as follows:
“Ok crystals and dreams? I don’t believe in them. I don’t believe that was my sister. I don’t know how I feel about you visiting her grave. I am not your brother and I can’t be your brother. And yes it was a nice gesture I guess but clearly you are focusing on the wrong thing. Let’s not talk about the weeds and the details. Let’s focus on you.” And completely shut down any further conversation about it.
In the past I have insisted and begged him to process him showing up at my apartment with me because I am still shaken up. He just always says “I never should’ve gotten involved like that but we are NOT going to talk about this ever again” and has always refused to hear how I felt about it.
He went back on vacation this past weekend and refused to take my call when I needed help, refused to text me, or anything. I called off work two days in a row because I was so devastated at his anger toward me and the gaslighting. It felt so unfair. I wanted to talk to him over the weekend because I was genuinely so hurt and felt like I truly lost him. He didn’t care.
WHERE TO GO FROM HERE?
I had an appointment in person tonight. First in person one since I told him about everything. I am embarrassed and feel so guilty that I visited his sister’s grave behind his back. It makes me feel psychotic. But at least I was honest and didn’t wait until I got caught / did not gaslight him.
I have a major surgery tomorrow and he won’t help me with my dog. I’ve gone back to my parents for now until I am recovered.
I want to tell him how hurt I am but I have tried that. He never understands. I miss him. As a brother.
I ended up going to session and he asked me why I feel off in therapy. He literally said “other than me slightly having to pull back right now what have I really done?”
I don’t know if I ever can get him to see my side or my pain in this.
FINAL THOUGHTS
Again I know the majority of people will want to come at my therapist or me for doing wrong things. I know it doesn’t seem like this, but he really isn’t intentionally manipulative or gaslight-y, he’s just trying to regulate himself.
I have grace for him. And for myself. So please, please try and respond with compassion. I don’t want to lose him. But I feel like I kind of am.
What are your overall thoughts, in the most gentle way possible? Was I wrong for telling him the truth about the grave?
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PREFACE
I understand this is the internet and I cannot expect people to have grace or mercy on me for any of this. All I can do is ask that if you’re going to give me your input, that you try and be as kind as possible. My heart is hurting and I really don’t feel I am in a place to hear that I need to entirely -drop- this therapist right now. My background of abuse and trauma will hopefully explain why that is, but I am not ready to let go. I am mostly posting this to vent, but also hoping that if anyone does have any advice that could help me even just in the short term with coping, that it will be gently shared.
BACKGROUND
I will try and keep this as short and sweet as possible but there’s a whole lot of history here. I am 27F, and I grew up in an unimaginably abusive home. Sex trafficking, severe physical, sexual, and emotional abuse from my father and my older brother (very patriarchal family), and a slew of very complicated and scary health issues including a liver disease and cancer. My family set me up to never be able to move out or live independently because they genuinely have viewed me to be their property. The severity of this can hopefully be summed up in just a few example:
• Was never allowed to even get myself a glass of water in the kitchen or learn to cook • Was not potty trained and had to rely on my mom to go to the bathroom into my teenage years • Drinking only from sippy cups until teenage years • Location monitored on my phone • Every credit card transaction / finance watched closely • Could not move away from collegeMy brother was allowed and able to do all these things, but I was not. My entire life, teachers and “adults” that were supposed to catch these things did not even bat an eye. They instead placed me in remedial classes and ESL assuming that I just had a learning disability or a language barrier (which I do not). When I told teachers in the past about my abuse, it was handled extremely poorly and no authorities ever got involved. My life felt worthless; meaningless. Like I could scream from the rooftops of my school that I was being abused and no one cared.
This past January, I did the unthinkable. I left my family and got my own apartment. Friends, therapists, coworkers, everyone who remotely knew me has been pushing me to do this for years and I genuinely thought I would die in my situation. I developed severe Stockholm syndrome so a huge part of my lack of leaving was due to my own internal thought patterns. I did it through the help of my current therapist, which is my… fourth? therapist that’s attempted to help. The last ones took advantage of how naive I was and hurt me (one of them has been arrested). This therapist, however, invested everything to get me out. He really wanted to see me free. And I am forever grateful for him.
MY CURRENT THERAPIST & BACKSTORY
I started seeing this therapist early in 2022 when I was still living with my family. I became severely bedridden and could not even go to the bathroom without my mom or dad escorting me. My anxiety and panic were at an all time high. I was on a leave of absence from work, and this therapist was the only reason I had for HAVING to get out of bed and forcing myself to drive, and most days I couldn’t even do that. He was patient, compassionate, and was willing to go to great lengths to help. Though mostly irrelevant, he’s 45M. He got into school for counseling later in life so when I started seeing him, he was just an intern under the director of the practice. At the time, the director of the practice was seeing an old time friend of mine (who happened to recently become my coworker). My friend had gotten concerned about why I wasn’t showing up to work and why I was struggling so much. I didn’t want to open up to her about it because I couldn’t open up to anyone at the time. However, my friend asked the director of the place if she knew anything about me. The director broke into my therapist’s file under the guise of “he is my intern, I can look at his stuff” and then relayed all of that information to my friend. It became an entire case against the state board and I fought tooth and nail to get that director in trouble. In the end, nothing was done and in retaliation, the director fired my therapist and I had to wait until my therapist found a new job in order to see him (he was pre-graduation by just a few weeks so he couldn’t ethically talk to me until he had another practice). During the worst moments of my life, I was without my therapist (no fault of his, and he checked on me frequently), but it was really only for a few weeks. To me that was a lot since I had been going 2-3 times a week, sometimes 4 because of my situation.
THE CRYSTAL AND THE SAGE
My therapist had gone out of town briefly and came back with a crystal he got. He told me when he purchased it he knew he wanted to give it to someone. And he said that it made him think of me and he wants me to have it. He said he wants it to be a reminder that he cares and others care and that it represents my truth to hold close. Months later, he went on another trip and said he got sage that someone gave him that was super special and he wanted me to have it. He was very invested in making sure I felt like he cares and has my back. I was never into spirituality in the same way as him so I respectfully accepted his kindness but kind of scoffed at him. It became more of a joke.
HOW MY BROTHER AND MY THERAPIST STARTED TEXTING
The director of the previous practice had tried to harass me with a fake number, as well as to my therapist. She wanted to try and get us to drop the case, I guess? When I continued to get texts from fake numbers, my therapist asked me to give him the number that was blowing up my phone. It turns out, timing was absolutely terrible. My brother (who moved out of state) was the one who started harassing me. My parents/brother allowed me to go to therapy to “work on my panic attacks” but they began hating the fact that my therapist was helping me become independent. My brother was outraged and texted me anonymously to kill myself. Because I still thought at the time that it was the director of the place, I went ahead and shared the number with my therapist. And that’s how it all began.
THE VIDEO THREATS FROM MY THERAPIST
Things got out of hand over the months. My therapist felt extremely protective of me and a “savior complex” kicked in. The reasoning for this is worth noting / important. My therapist lost his sister to suicide when they were young, and he also lost his father shortly after. His sister apparently had also been assaulted and my therapist had mentioned to me before how he views me as a friend, someone to protect, like a sister. He admitted his struggle with transference and said his main and only concern was to get me to move out of my family’s house. To take a leap of faith. He was desperate to do that. He offered to help me get an apartment near him so he could help me out, he offered to babysit my dog for me (my golden retriever is my emotional support animal that my parents have used as a bargaining chip), he offered to see me in therapy 5 times a week if I just moved. I just wasn’t ready. But my brother would not relent.
My therapist still does not know that I know this, but my brother showed me some of the videos my therapist sent him. Three separate threatening videos. In them, my therapist was shirtless with a ski mask on saying he was part of the FBI and that if my brother didn’t behave himself, that he would have his people come after him. My brother said that I was threatening him and that if I didn’t get this man to stop, it would be trouble. My therapist got extremely activated and decided to take it as a challenge.
My therapist also at some points asked my brother “how to assault me” because he wanted to know what my brother did/wanted him to admit it. But if an outsider saw the texts, it would seem like my therapist was asking to participate in assaulting me. It looked HORRIBLY incriminating.
THE MOVE OUT
I got the courage one night. Drove my dog over to my therapist’s house and moved in with a friend while I apartment hunted. My therapist was incredibly proud of me and poured so much love and care into my dog. I truly felt hopeful and optimistic and I eventually applied for my own apartment and got approved. Because of severe Stockholm syndrome and lack of knowing how to do ANYTHING, I would end up visiting home (somehow, they allowed that and I did not die!)
THE ASSAULT
Long story short (I am not super comfortable going into this part), people from the temple I was sex trafficked in (linked with my family), showed up and assaulted me at gun point in a van. I told my therapist. He was extremely upset on my behalf and called the police. He told me it was essential that I get restraining orders and that I stop going over to my parents house even if I have Stockholm syndrome. He said he could no longer be patient on that because I was actively being attacked. I told him I was still too nervous to go no contact and I could tell he was frustrated with me.
WHEN MY THERAPIST SECRETLY SAT OUTSIDE MY APARTMENT
My brother / someone from the temple decided to start things up once he figured out the person he was texting earlier was in fact my therapist. He threatened my therapist and challenged him to meet up. My brother was bluffing but my therapist took it seriously. My therapist arranged to meet him outside my apartment at 9pm that night. I had a weird gut feeling so I texted my therapist that night and asked him not to do anything stupid, but I had no idea what he had up his sleeve. Without telling me, my therapist sat outside my apartment waiting for my brother (who never showed) to meet him. Why my therapist chose to meet him RIGHT OUTSIDE my new residence was extremely irresponsible.
I went to take my dog out to the bathroom that night and my friend and I were hanging out. She noticed a dark car with someone sitting and staring with a mask on. We walked closer and it was my therapist. I yelled at him because I was so worried he would’ve gotten shot or attacked and that he would get hurt as a result of trying to fight. My therapist apologized and was so embarrassed. He awkwardly said “you weren’t supposed to know about this…” and drove off full force. We hopped in my friends car and followed him to wherever he tried to run off to. He then promised me he would leave. About 20 mins later, my friend and I decide to go out to get food and we see him sitting in another part of my apartment complex still ready to fight. I was so upset that he lied to me multiple times and that he was risking his life. What would’ve happened if he got attacked? But my therapist apologized again and said “I just need to look him in the eye” implying he was ready to kill.
THE DREAMS ABOUT MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER
As my therapist had told me, his sister had passed away from suicide when they were young. He admitted to have transference in a way where he viewed me in a sisterly way. For a while, I continually had dreams about his sister and it was very weird. I told him I don’t believe in a lot of things like crystals or burning sage but that these dreams felt incredibly vivid. In the dreams, her sister was assuring me that my therapist was sent in my life to be the brother I couldn’t have. That he was sent to me as a brother, and I to him as a sister.
THE HOSPITAL
Just within the span of days after he showed up to my apartment, I was hospitalized due to complications with my liver, and I reached out to my family for help. My therapist was upset with me for interacting with my family at all. My therapist even visited me in the hospital and said that I don’t need to call my family for help and that I have him and my other friends who will have my back. After I was discharged from the hospital, I asked my therapist if I could take my dog back for at least a weekend (he took my dog in while I went to the hospital in order to help me. He said he would hang onto him while I recovered and caught up on rest). So when he gave me my dog for the weekend, out of guilt, I took my dog with me to visit my family. I just felt the need to run back. My dad manipulated me a lot about missing my dog so I felt obligated.
MY THERAPIST’S FRUSTRATION
I admitted to my therapist that I had taken my dog to my parents for the weekend (after I already gave him my dog back). My therapist was so upset about it. He had put so much love and time into my dog and helping me, and then I took him back to the hands of my abusers. This is when him pulling back began. He felt like he was doing all of this extraneous stuff for me and I was just taking steps back.
THE SUICIDE METHOD
As he got over his frustration a little bit, I became very suicidal to the point where I purchased a rope and planned it out. I made him the beneficiary of my bank accounts as a thank you to him for everything. He told me he would do what he could to help me. He said I could bring my dog back to him if I just need a life break. He didn’t know I had the rope but he knew I was thinking suicide. When I went back to drop my dog off, I admitted I had a rope. I gave it to him. He realized I was genuinely going to kill myself and was so grateful I told him the truth. He told me he would be there for me to help me through it. Showed me grace and compassion and everything.
THE MAJOR PULLBACK
No warning. No indication. My therapist immediately pulled back. Hard. He told me to call him later that week (I usually have therapy 3x a week but he was out of town), and so I did as he said and called him to update him. He immediately flipped out. “Ugh, I cannot be in anything extra to your therapy space. I am going through things on my own and I need to pull back. I can’t take calls any hour of the day anymore. I can’t take your dog. You don’t even listen to me anyway. You do what you want and go to your parents. So, I don’t know what to say. I am committed to you as your therapist but that’s it. If you feel suicidal outside of that, go to a hospital and get sedated.” I was absolutely crushed and felt so awful and guilty like I did something wrong. I didn’t want to bother him. I didn’t want to lose him. He made me feel loved and cared for (platonically, as a brother) and I felt so safe with him. Until this moment. He was very hung up on the fact that I kept going home to my family despite his efforts.
After calming down he explained how he feels like he needs to step back because his emotions shouldn’t affect my therapy and that he’s doing it to help me. But it felt very selfish. He over exerted himself by showing up to my apartment and sending threatening videos when I never asked for it, all because HE wanted to. And now he pulls back because HE wants to. None of his decisions were based on what I would feel, but what would best serve him.
THE RELAPSE AND THE DREAMS
Because my therapist stepped back so hard, I relapsed and said “screw it” / went back to my parents. I still had my apartment but I backslid majorly.
During this time I was so distraught. This therapist made me feel supported. And no, I didn’t attach onto him in an unhealthy way where he became my only hope. But he did feel like the brother I wished I had, and he felt like such a deep and important part of my life and I was devastated.
I started having dreams again about his sister and I cried. I felt like I was given this gift and then it was taken away.
THE BACK AND FORTH
My therapist began telling me that he thinks I should have additional support in this season especially while he “takes a break from extraneous stuff” with me. He said when he was younger and going through things, he had two therapists.
A week later I told him I found a second therapist and he said: “ummm I don’t know. I feel protective over that. Maybe don’t get a second one. Find a support group but I don’t want you seeing another one.”
I stood my ground and said I might still find one and he said “well then make sure the other one is a woman and is closely in touch with me.”
It felt very wishy washy and he did a lot of similar things like this for a while.
But when I listened to him and decided against a second therapist, he pulled back again. He said he wouldn’t take any more texts or calls outside of session once again and made me feel like an obsessed freak when I wasn’t even really doing much at all. Or asking for anything.
VISITING MY THERAPIST’S LATE SISTER’S GRAVE
My therapist is a famous author and singesong writer. Online, it’s very easy to find his sister’s name and I did some digging and found out where her grave is located. I was feeling really awful, like I was grieving the loss myself which is so incredibly psychotic. I know. But it more so felt like I was grieving the loss of this brotherly love I once felt from my therapist. But it’s been a couple months at this point and he still refuses to take texts or calls, and is very argumentative and angry in sessions. And I just wanted to take some flowers to the grave in private, not tell him, and just accept that he can’t be what I needed him to be for me.
MY FAMILY FINDS OUT
When I went to the cemetery, the place was huge. So I had to go into the office and ask for the location of his sister’s grave. They gave me a piece of paper with her name and grave location on it and I eventually just threw it in my wallet. My dad stumbled upon my wallet while I was at home one of the days and noticed the last name and asked me if I was still seeing my therapist. They don’t like him for obvious reasons. But I admitted to my parents that I do still see my therapist and that he’s more like family than they’d ever be. They abused me. But I stood in my truth. At the end of the day I will not deny that my therapist DID help me immensely and if that means I have to be abused for the truth, I’ll do it.
MY THERAPIST INSISTS ON INFORMATION
He knew that I was hiding something. I told him my family was abusive again but I didn’t say why. He spent an entire session saying he needs to know what happened. I said no multiple times and that I didn’t want to talk about it. He used language like “you have to tell me before you leave my office” and “if you care so much about me you’ll tell me.” He even told me he was going to take my hand and promise me that he won’t react. He held it and looked me in the eye and promised he’d meet me with compassion. I refused. He then asked me if I’ve been lying to him. Deceptive. It broke me and I felt like it was just such an insult. But I stayed strong and he apologized for bothering me about it.
Last week comes around and it feels like such a hindrance. He’s continuing to be short with me and not answer my texts, not taking emergency calls, and just… is continuing to be cold. I even texted him that I was genuinely feeling suicidal and he told me he can’t help me outside of session. Period.
So then after my latest session, I told him I’d text him what happened because I was too uncomfortable to say it. I told him I visited his sister’s grave, about the dreams, everything. I said I felt really hurt at his pullback and how it felt selfish.
He responded by gaslighting me endlessly and it absolutely crushed me furthermore. He responded as follows:
“Ok crystals and dreams? I don’t believe in them. I don’t believe that was my sister. I don’t know how I feel about you visiting her grave. I am not your brother and I can’t be your brother. And yes it was a nice gesture I guess but clearly you are focusing on the wrong thing. Let’s not talk about the weeds and the details. Let’s focus on you.” And completely shut down any further conversation about it.
In the past I have insisted and begged him to process him showing up at my apartment with me because I am still shaken up. He just always says “I never should’ve gotten involved like that but we are NOT going to talk about this ever again” and has always refused to hear how I felt about it.
He went back on vacation this past weekend and refused to take my call when I needed help, refused to text me, or anything. I called off work two days in a row because I was so devastated at his anger toward me and the gaslighting. It felt so unfair. I wanted to talk to him over the weekend because I was genuinely so hurt and felt like I truly lost him. He didn’t care.
WHERE TO GO FROM HERE?
I had an appointment in person tonight. First in person one since I told him about everything. I am embarrassed and feel so guilty that I visited his sister’s grave behind his back. It makes me feel psychotic. But at least I was honest and didn’t wait until I got caught / did not gaslight him.
I have a major surgery tomorrow and he won’t help me with my dog. I’ve gone back to my parents for now until I am recovered.
I want to tell him how hurt I am but I have tried that. He never understands. I miss him. As a brother.
I ended up going to session and he asked me why I feel off in therapy. He literally said “other than me slightly having to pull back right now what have I really done?”
I don’t know if I ever can get him to see my side or my pain in this.
FINAL THOUGHTS
Again I know the majority of people will want to come at my therapist or me for doing wrong things. I know it doesn’t seem like this, but he really isn’t intentionally manipulative or gaslight-y, he’s just trying to regulate himself.
I have grace for him. And for myself. So please, please try and respond with compassion. I don’t want to lose him. But I feel like I kind of am.
What are your overall thoughts, in the most gentle way possible? Was I wrong for telling him the truth about the grave?
2023.05.31 02:11 TonightAdventurous68 Til first paycheck
Hey y’all, I recently (few months ago) lost my job & shortly thereafter mostly everything else. I’ve been scraping by with what I can make from gigs & on food stamps, but struggling to take care of everything in this last looong stretch til I can get paid regularly and start catching up (received news that I’m good to start work next week so glad the end is in sight) and yeah, any assistance would be hugely appreciated be it for bus fare, food, or hygiene supplies/laundry..I have the inconvenience of an out-of-unit payperswipe washedryer. I can put together a wishlist if there’s interested parties, and or provide more specific details if needed. I’m looking at about 2-3 weeks til my first check so it’s still going to be a while unfortunately. Thanks to everyone who read, I appreciate you❤️👌
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2023.05.31 01:51 taylorgblock210 Question about reimbursement for denture procedures?
Not sure what details I need to get figured out but here is the situation. My dad (70) has aarp and went to monarch dental for dentures. The operation did not go well and now 15 months later they do not fit properly and my dad still can’t eat because they are loose and cause soreness if he tries to eat solid food. He went back to the dentist office and they had him see a specialist who said it’s now gonna be $14k for a procedure to fasten them down. My question is, how can the dentist office get paid from the insurance company (AARP) and then basically do a shit job and not stand behind their work? Seems like a fucking scam and taking advantage of the elderly. This is in San Antonio btw.
Looking for advice, please and thanks.
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2023.05.31 01:49 maldroite Asking for accomodations at work?
I just started a new job and it’s pretty good, except for the fact that multiple coworkers make sounds that I find absolutely intolerable.
I know misophonia isn’t logical, but I was able to work at my old job for 10 months and can’t think of a single noise in the office that bothered me. Five weeks into this job I’m almost in tears daily.
We’ve got a communal chewing gum collection (I know) and the two guys that sit by me chew it CONSTANTLY. one of them is a throat clearer too, along with another coworker, and the other one picks up and slams down his mouse every time he moves it, and types aggressively.
Lunchtime is super stressful as we’ve got a culturally diverse office, with lots of slurping/lip smacking. That’s fine, but Im feeling physically ill when I hear it. There is nowhere else to sit and eat so I try to finish my food quickly and then sit in a meeting room for the rest of my break.
We have a quiet room to take meetings and I’ve been using it for hours a day but I can tell my coworkers are thinking it’s really strange and antisocial.
When I try to push through and sit with the noise, my coworkers chat to me and ask me questions and I feel like I’m going to rip their heads off because it’s another sound added to the cacophony. Our supplied headphones are noise cancelling but don’t block it out.
SO my question is: has anyone asked to move desks, or asked to use a quiet room semi-permanently? Have you provided any documentation about your misophonia ? It’s at the point where I’m thinking about quitting a month in because I’m so distressed.
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I know misophonia isn’t logical, but I was able to work at my old job for 10 months and can’t think of a single noise in the office that bothered me. Five weeks into this job I’m almost in tears daily.
We’ve got a communal chewing gum collection (I know) and the two guys that sit by me chew it CONSTANTLY. one of them is a throat clearer too, along with another coworker, and the other one picks up and slams down his mouse every time he moves it, and types aggressively.
Lunchtime is super stressful as we’ve got a culturally diverse office, with lots of slurping/lip smacking. That’s fine, but Im feeling physically ill when I hear it. There is nowhere else to sit and eat so I try to finish my food quickly and then sit in a meeting room for the rest of my break.
We have a quiet room to take meetings and I’ve been using it for hours a day but I can tell my coworkers are thinking it’s really strange and antisocial.
When I try to push through and sit with the noise, my coworkers chat to me and ask me questions and I feel like I’m going to rip their heads off because it’s another sound added to the cacophony. Our supplied headphones are noise cancelling but don’t block it out.
SO my question is: has anyone asked to move desks, or asked to use a quiet room semi-permanently? Have you provided any documentation about your misophonia ? It’s at the point where I’m thinking about quitting a month in because I’m so distressed.
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Proof part one and proof part two
☆ Everything is tested by my LCS on a Sigma Pro
☆ All orders get a free 90% silver bonus!
☆ Trading: I'm looking for gold or platinum 1/10ths, mostly. I also really like SilverTowne casino chips. If it's not on my list, I might still be interested just hit me up :)
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🐳 Take both for $600, shipped!
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● Take both silver eagles for only $120!
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Thanks for looking & have a fantastic day!2023.05.31 01:46 MydnightSilver [WTS] - [WTT]: Gold & Platinum, poured silver, slabbed silver, Niue & Palau, and a little bit of junk. New items & lower prices! Free 90% bonus gift!
Hi Folks!
Proof part one and proof part two
☆ Everything is tested by my LCS on a Sigma Pro
☆ All orders get a free 90% silver bonus!
☆ Trading: I'm looking for gold or platinum 1/10ths, mostly. I also really like SilverTowne casino chips. If it's not on my list, I might still be interested just hit me up :)
☆ Contains 0.2509oz of platinum surrounded by a ring of 0.2509oz gold - Asking $1000, free Priority ship
Closeup and Reverse
~
Gold & Platinum 1/10ths
☆ 2023 Gold Phil - BU w/flip - $240
☆ 2021 Gold Kangaroo - BU w/capsule - $245
☆ 2015 Gold War in the Pacific (Australia) - BU w/capsule - $245
☆ 2022 Gold Krugerrand - BU w/capsule - $245
☆ 2022 Platinum Kook - BU w/capsule - $160 (low mintage)
Closeups and Reverse
● Buy 2 and get free shipping
Closeup and Reverse
~
2017 Zombucks Walker Proof - with matching box and packaging. Small tears on top flap of outer packaging - $110
Closeup and Reverse
~
2021 Silver Shield Torus Flower of Life - Proof with box & COA - $90
Closeup and Reverse
~
2021 PAMP Fender 351 Heavy guitar pick - limited edition, 10G sterling, absolute mint condition - $85
Closeup and Reverse
~
1992 Columbus Quincentennial - 1oz Proof with box & COA - $45
Closeup and Reverse
Closeup and Reverse
~
2019-P Tuvalu Laughing Buddha - Solid Jade Insert - Antiqued finish - MS70 - $300
Closeup and Reverse
~
2023 Chad Black Mamba - 2oz Figure 8 - Antiqued high relief - MS70 - Only 888 made and only two MS70 in existence, both are for sale! - Comes with original boxing too! - $320 each, priced at MS69 prices! Serial #159 and #160
Closeup and Packaging
🐳 Take both for $600, shipped!
~
2022 Palau Scarab - Ramses II - Antique finish, FDI, MS70 - Comes with packaging & COA - $170
Closeup and Reverse
~
2022 Palau - American Alligator - Ultra High Relief - PF70 Ultra Cameo - With packaging / COA display box - $160
Closeup and Reverse
~
2021-S ASE - MS70 T1 FS EI - $79
2021-P MS69 T1 FS EI - $47
Closeup and Reverse
● Take both silver eagles for only $120!
~
2022-MO Libertad - MS70 FS - $65
Closeup and Reverse
~
2019 Britannia - Reverse Struck Thru Error - MS69 - $190
Closeup and Reverse
~
2014 Britannia - Lunar Horse Obverse Mule Error - Gem Unc - $95
Closeup and Reverse (which is missing castellation)
~
1/4 Onza PF70 UC - $47
1/4 Double Eagle PF70 UC - $47
1/2 Maple RP70 DCAM (#15 of 259) - $65
Fractional slabs and Reverse
● Take all 3 for $160, shipped!
~
Australian MS70 DCAM Kooks - 2013-P + 2016-P - $50 each
Closeup and Reverse
● Take both for $95, shipped!
Closeup
● Buy any 2, get free shipping!
~
Monarch - RIP 2021 with wood coffin, number 450 of 999 made - 2ozt - $85
Closeup and Reverse
~
2022 Allegories - Germania & Polonia, with the convex airtite - Comes with COA too! - $38, only 2 left available!
2023 Germania Valkyries Ostara, with airtite & COA - $42
Closeup and Reverse
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1935 50% Fiji Florin - $12 or add to any order for only $9!
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Shipping is $5 tracked, $10 Priority. I pack items like they're being airdropped into an active war zone and hand deliver fast (same day when possible) to the counter, but insurance is available. Once delivered to USPS, out of my hands. Willing to middleman at buyer's expense.
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Proof part one and proof part two
☆ Everything is tested by my LCS on a Sigma Pro
☆ All orders get a free 90% silver bonus!
☆ Trading: I'm looking for gold or platinum 1/10ths, mostly. I also really like SilverTowne casino chips. If it's not on my list, I might still be interested just hit me up :)
GOLD & PLATINUM
2000-W Bi-metallic Library of Congress - Proof - with all OGP including outer sleeve - This Proof gold & platinum coin is the first gold and platinum bi-metallic coin issued by the US Mint.☆ Contains 0.2509oz of platinum surrounded by a ring of 0.2509oz gold - Asking $1000, free Priority ship
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Gold & Platinum 1/10ths
☆ 2023 Gold Phil - BU w/flip - $240
☆ 2021 Gold Kangaroo - BU w/capsule - $245
☆ 2015 Gold War in the Pacific (Australia) - BU w/capsule - $245
☆ 2022 Gold Krugerrand - BU w/capsule - $245
☆ 2022 Platinum Kook - BU w/capsule - $160 (low mintage)
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● Buy 2 and get free shipping
BOXED & PACKAGED
2021 Niue Chibi - Lord of the Rings series, Gimli - mint condition! - $80Closeup and Reverse
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2017 Zombucks Walker Proof - with matching box and packaging. Small tears on top flap of outer packaging - $110
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2021 Silver Shield Torus Flower of Life - Proof with box & COA - $90
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2021 PAMP Fender 351 Heavy guitar pick - limited edition, 10G sterling, absolute mint condition - $85
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1992 Columbus Quincentennial - 1oz Proof with box & COA - $45
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GRADED SLABS
2022 Niue - Hogwarts: Dumbledore's Office - MS70 Antiqued - Comes with packaging too - $155Closeup and Reverse
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2019-P Tuvalu Laughing Buddha - Solid Jade Insert - Antiqued finish - MS70 - $300
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2023 Chad Black Mamba - 2oz Figure 8 - Antiqued high relief - MS70 - Only 888 made and only two MS70 in existence, both are for sale! - Comes with original boxing too! - $320 each, priced at MS69 prices! Serial #159 and #160
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🐳 Take both for $600, shipped!
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2022 Palau Scarab - Ramses II - Antique finish, FDI, MS70 - Comes with packaging & COA - $170
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2022 Palau - American Alligator - Ultra High Relief - PF70 Ultra Cameo - With packaging / COA display box - $160
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2021-S ASE - MS70 T1 FS EI - $79
2021-P MS69 T1 FS EI - $47
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● Take both silver eagles for only $120!
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2022-MO Libertad - MS70 FS - $65
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2019 Britannia - Reverse Struck Thru Error - MS69 - $190
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2014 Britannia - Lunar Horse Obverse Mule Error - Gem Unc - $95
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1/4 Onza PF70 UC - $47
1/4 Double Eagle PF70 UC - $47
1/2 Maple RP70 DCAM (#15 of 259) - $65
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● Take all 3 for $160, shipped!
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Australian MS70 DCAM Kooks - 2013-P + 2016-P - $50 each
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● Take both for $95, shipped!
FINE SILVER
Hand pours - RCM .9999 shot - Bravo's Coin - End the Fed (new stamp) ripple bar @ 6.4oz ($200) - End The Fed @ 4.9oz ($155) - Fuck The Fed @ 3.7oz ($115) - Fuck The Fed 2.0oz button ($60) • Weights rounded down, these are fat... scale pics by request.Closeup
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Monarch - RIP 2021 with wood coffin, number 450 of 999 made - 2ozt - $85
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2022 Allegories - Germania & Polonia, with the convex airtite - Comes with COA too! - $38, only 2 left available!
2023 Germania Valkyries Ostara, with airtite & COA - $42
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JUNK SILVER
LOT: $10fv 40% Kennedy halves - 8.5x = $85Closeup
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1935 50% Fiji Florin - $12 or add to any order for only $9!
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Payments & Shipping
In order of preference: Zelle, CashApp, Venmo FF, PayPal FF, Google Pay, or BTC.Shipping is $5 tracked, $10 Priority. I pack items like they're being airdropped into an active war zone and hand deliver fast (same day when possible) to the counter, but insurance is available. Once delivered to USPS, out of my hands. Willing to middleman at buyer's expense.
DM preferred but can do chat... make sure to leave a comment so I get notified on mobile.
Thanks for looking & have a fantastic day!2023.05.31 01:35 fjordmotherboard $30 Worth of Food Stamps in the US
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2023.05.31 01:26 ReferendumAutonomic 3 British women murdered with no penalty
Autistic's "caregivers received $5,000 per month...charged with false imprisonment, abuse or neglect and failure to report...pneumonia, wounds across her body, bedsores and ulcers. She was also in septic shock due to infection and suffered cardiac arrest." https://uinterview.com/news/caregivers-who-allegedly-tortured-autistic-woman-to-death-were-paid-250000-by-new-mexico-to-care-for-he
"common medications that can trigger depression...Beta blockers...birth control...Levodopa or Sinemet CR are used to treat Parkinson's...Corticosteroids...Stimulants." https://m.jpost.com/health-and-wellness/article-744470
"Certified Peer Support (CPS) specialists to do the outreach. At this point, the INSET model in Westchester County, NY may be the only fully functioning program. They currently have 4 CPS assisting 20 individuals each...But it is not, I repeat not, a relationship of the CPS telling an individual what they have to do or choose." https://mhpolicy.org/finding-a-better-way/
Palestinian doctor in ireland, "patient’s (Qatari) father had “cried and cried and cried”...A psychiatric assessment would take a minimum of between 50 and 60 minutes." Why did suffolk county court blindly believe dr. hsiesh who didn't let me speak and met for less than 5 minutes? https://www.irishtimes.com/health/2023/05/29/doctor-denies-acting-as-representative-of-the-qatari-embassy-to-treat-psychiatric-patient/
texas baptist licensed professional counselor, "Pray about it...take it to God, and then take it to people who you know, and trust...Jesus being perfect but not flawless as a sinless human and the need for a community to battle isolation." https://www.denisonforum.org/biblical-living/podcast/mental-health-psychology-and-faith-a-conversation-with-chris-legg-lpc/
Pastor Randy Reid, Clanton First Assembly of God, "mass shootings in America is not a mental illness problem, it’s a spiritual problem." https://www.clantonadvertiser.com/2023/05/29/column-its-not-just-mental-illness/
new york city mayor, "Adams unwittingly implies that the Nazi response to schizophrenics is acceptable: murder them...poverty as proof of dangerous and savage psychosis." https://www.citywatchla.com/index.php/cw/important-reads/27013-the-death-penalty-for-homelessness CBS video on 176,000 calls per year. https://www.cbsnews.com/newyork/news/jordan-neely-death-mental-health-crisis-new-york-city/
Ineffective addiction treatment $24 billion by 2030, more than 20 million Americans. Global behavioural health market $128 billion. https://www.globenewswire.com/news-release/2023/05/30/2678490/0/en/Addiction-Treatment-Market-Size-Worth-USD-24-3-Billion-by-2030-at-9-2-CAGR-Report-by-Market-Research-Future-MRFR.html https://www.pharmiweb.com/press-release/2023-05-30/behavioural-health-market-to-attain-an-estimated-worth-of-us-1562-billion-by-2028-at-a-cagr-of-34
"What are the causes of hallucinations?...Stress and traumatic events...Deprivation of senses...Epilepsy and seizures...antipsychotics, antidepressants, and antihistamines...mess with the way neurotransmitters work in the brain, which can change how people see things." https://www.sportskeeda.com/health-and-fitness/what-are-common-causes-hallucination
"paranoid"...malevolent spirits of Muslim culture...he could feel the presence of the jinn but not see it. What the officer witnessed was his trying to fight the powerlessness he felt as Jinn cursed him." https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/up-and-running/202304/the-hallucinations-you-never-heard-of
Noone should modify someone's body without informed consent. "perception of autistic people and people with [intellectual and developmental disabilities] overall, that we’re not able to make our own decisions. Big decisions like those around health care, education, living arrangements,” they said. “All too often our decisions are viewed with suspicion and fear...In Arkansas, doctors can shield themselves against lawsuits over gender-affirming care if they can prove that their minor patient did not have conditions including autism, depression, ADHD, an eating disorder, an intellectual disability or a psychotic disorder." https://19thnews.org/2023/05/trans-laws-autistic-youth-mental-health/
florida termination of guardianship forms https://www.formsworkflow.com/Form/searchresults/17503-flssi-guardianship-termination-of/1
"Brain in Hand combines practical solution-based coaching with a user-led digital self-management system to help (autistic) individuals build their independence." https://www.miragenews.com/digital-support-reduces-anxiety-in-autistic-1016215/
No penalty for 3 british murders including a 20 year old woman, "choked in her sleep after being given inappropriate medication which had caused 'significant sedation'. The coroner said there was insufficient consideration of 'polypharmacy." https://www.manchestereveningnews.co.uk/news/greater-manchester-news/people-shouldnt-live-poor-conditions-27003379
Deprescribing "four drugs for his moods." https://medshadow.org/14-prescriptions-by-different-doctors/
"Research suggests a connection between low iron levels and symptoms of depression, anxiety, and schizophrenia, Levin and Gattari write." https://www.newswise.com/articles/could-low-iron-be-making-your-mental-health-symptoms-worse
Some processed frozen "meals contribute toward inflammation in the gut, which is where most serotonin...2015 study published in the American Journal of Clinical Nutrition suggested sugary and starchy foods could contribute to depression." https://news.yahoo.com/5-foods-negative-impact-mental-094501356.html
risperdal and haldol cause me muscle spasms. "Serotonin syndrome − a rare but very serious drug reaction...ending the pain once it starts − include standing or walking around, massaging the affected area, improved (calcium) nutrition, sleeping in comfortable positions" doesn't work on my face. https://www.usatoday.com/story/life/health-wellness/2023/05/29/what-causes-muscle-spasms/70249143007/
"I'm not a doctor, but I play one on federal court." https://images.cartoonstock.com/lowres/abortions-rights-usa-judge-matthew_kacsmaryk-abortion_pills-abortion_drugs-prescription-EC501549_low.jpg
Boot Camps for (kidnapped) Kids: Tough Love or Torture, "even going to the bathroom requires permission (as at zucker hillside)." Comment, "80% fail bc their parents didn't go." https://youtu.be/A7Y_yEiJJCU
True story of 40 murders, "Boot Camp" (2008) starring Mila Kunis, "He's not even a real doctor...I don't recognize your fucking credentials." https://youtu.be/idBabcDUy-Q
Three For The Road 1987 Charlie Sheen movie about politician's daughter "doped to the gills" and kidnapped to institution. https://youtu.be/VgB84kX9emE
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"common medications that can trigger depression...Beta blockers...birth control...Levodopa or Sinemet CR are used to treat Parkinson's...Corticosteroids...Stimulants." https://m.jpost.com/health-and-wellness/article-744470
"Certified Peer Support (CPS) specialists to do the outreach. At this point, the INSET model in Westchester County, NY may be the only fully functioning program. They currently have 4 CPS assisting 20 individuals each...But it is not, I repeat not, a relationship of the CPS telling an individual what they have to do or choose." https://mhpolicy.org/finding-a-better-way/
Palestinian doctor in ireland, "patient’s (Qatari) father had “cried and cried and cried”...A psychiatric assessment would take a minimum of between 50 and 60 minutes." Why did suffolk county court blindly believe dr. hsiesh who didn't let me speak and met for less than 5 minutes? https://www.irishtimes.com/health/2023/05/29/doctor-denies-acting-as-representative-of-the-qatari-embassy-to-treat-psychiatric-patient/
texas baptist licensed professional counselor, "Pray about it...take it to God, and then take it to people who you know, and trust...Jesus being perfect but not flawless as a sinless human and the need for a community to battle isolation." https://www.denisonforum.org/biblical-living/podcast/mental-health-psychology-and-faith-a-conversation-with-chris-legg-lpc/
Pastor Randy Reid, Clanton First Assembly of God, "mass shootings in America is not a mental illness problem, it’s a spiritual problem." https://www.clantonadvertiser.com/2023/05/29/column-its-not-just-mental-illness/
new york city mayor, "Adams unwittingly implies that the Nazi response to schizophrenics is acceptable: murder them...poverty as proof of dangerous and savage psychosis." https://www.citywatchla.com/index.php/cw/important-reads/27013-the-death-penalty-for-homelessness CBS video on 176,000 calls per year. https://www.cbsnews.com/newyork/news/jordan-neely-death-mental-health-crisis-new-york-city/
Ineffective addiction treatment $24 billion by 2030, more than 20 million Americans. Global behavioural health market $128 billion. https://www.globenewswire.com/news-release/2023/05/30/2678490/0/en/Addiction-Treatment-Market-Size-Worth-USD-24-3-Billion-by-2030-at-9-2-CAGR-Report-by-Market-Research-Future-MRFR.html https://www.pharmiweb.com/press-release/2023-05-30/behavioural-health-market-to-attain-an-estimated-worth-of-us-1562-billion-by-2028-at-a-cagr-of-34
"What are the causes of hallucinations?...Stress and traumatic events...Deprivation of senses...Epilepsy and seizures...antipsychotics, antidepressants, and antihistamines...mess with the way neurotransmitters work in the brain, which can change how people see things." https://www.sportskeeda.com/health-and-fitness/what-are-common-causes-hallucination
"paranoid"...malevolent spirits of Muslim culture...he could feel the presence of the jinn but not see it. What the officer witnessed was his trying to fight the powerlessness he felt as Jinn cursed him." https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/up-and-running/202304/the-hallucinations-you-never-heard-of
Noone should modify someone's body without informed consent. "perception of autistic people and people with [intellectual and developmental disabilities] overall, that we’re not able to make our own decisions. Big decisions like those around health care, education, living arrangements,” they said. “All too often our decisions are viewed with suspicion and fear...In Arkansas, doctors can shield themselves against lawsuits over gender-affirming care if they can prove that their minor patient did not have conditions including autism, depression, ADHD, an eating disorder, an intellectual disability or a psychotic disorder." https://19thnews.org/2023/05/trans-laws-autistic-youth-mental-health/
florida termination of guardianship forms https://www.formsworkflow.com/Form/searchresults/17503-flssi-guardianship-termination-of/1
"Brain in Hand combines practical solution-based coaching with a user-led digital self-management system to help (autistic) individuals build their independence." https://www.miragenews.com/digital-support-reduces-anxiety-in-autistic-1016215/
No penalty for 3 british murders including a 20 year old woman, "choked in her sleep after being given inappropriate medication which had caused 'significant sedation'. The coroner said there was insufficient consideration of 'polypharmacy." https://www.manchestereveningnews.co.uk/news/greater-manchester-news/people-shouldnt-live-poor-conditions-27003379
Deprescribing "four drugs for his moods." https://medshadow.org/14-prescriptions-by-different-doctors/
"Research suggests a connection between low iron levels and symptoms of depression, anxiety, and schizophrenia, Levin and Gattari write." https://www.newswise.com/articles/could-low-iron-be-making-your-mental-health-symptoms-worse
Some processed frozen "meals contribute toward inflammation in the gut, which is where most serotonin...2015 study published in the American Journal of Clinical Nutrition suggested sugary and starchy foods could contribute to depression." https://news.yahoo.com/5-foods-negative-impact-mental-094501356.html
risperdal and haldol cause me muscle spasms. "Serotonin syndrome − a rare but very serious drug reaction...ending the pain once it starts − include standing or walking around, massaging the affected area, improved (calcium) nutrition, sleeping in comfortable positions" doesn't work on my face. https://www.usatoday.com/story/life/health-wellness/2023/05/29/what-causes-muscle-spasms/70249143007/
"I'm not a doctor, but I play one on federal court." https://images.cartoonstock.com/lowres/abortions-rights-usa-judge-matthew_kacsmaryk-abortion_pills-abortion_drugs-prescription-EC501549_low.jpg
Boot Camps for (kidnapped) Kids: Tough Love or Torture, "even going to the bathroom requires permission (as at zucker hillside)." Comment, "80% fail bc their parents didn't go." https://youtu.be/A7Y_yEiJJCU
True story of 40 murders, "Boot Camp" (2008) starring Mila Kunis, "He's not even a real doctor...I don't recognize your fucking credentials." https://youtu.be/idBabcDUy-Q
Three For The Road 1987 Charlie Sheen movie about politician's daughter "doped to the gills" and kidnapped to institution. https://youtu.be/VgB84kX9emE
2023.05.31 01:25 ReferendumAutonomic 3 British women murdered with no penalty; "assessment...minimum...60 minutes"
Autistic's "caregivers received $5,000 per month...charged with false imprisonment, abuse or neglect and failure to report...pneumonia, wounds across her body, bedsores and ulcers. She was also in septic shock due to infection and suffered cardiac arrest." https://uinterview.com/news/caregivers-who-allegedly-tortured-autistic-woman-to-death-were-paid-250000-by-new-mexico-to-care-for-he
"common medications that can trigger depression...Beta blockers...birth control...Levodopa or Sinemet CR are used to treat Parkinson's...Corticosteroids...Stimulants." https://m.jpost.com/health-and-wellness/article-744470
"Certified Peer Support (CPS) specialists to do the outreach. At this point, the INSET model in Westchester County, NY may be the only fully functioning program. They currently have 4 CPS assisting 20 individuals each...But it is not, I repeat not, a relationship of the CPS telling an individual what they have to do or choose." https://mhpolicy.org/finding-a-better-way/
Palestinian doctor in ireland, "patient’s (Qatari) father had “cried and cried and cried”...A psychiatric assessment would take a minimum of between 50 and 60 minutes." Why did suffolk county court blindly believe dr. hsiesh who didn't let me speak and met for less than 5 minutes? https://www.irishtimes.com/health/2023/05/29/doctor-denies-acting-as-representative-of-the-qatari-embassy-to-treat-psychiatric-patient/
texas baptist licensed professional counselor, "Pray about it...take it to God, and then take it to people who you know, and trust...Jesus being perfect but not flawless as a sinless human and the need for a community to battle isolation." https://www.denisonforum.org/biblical-living/podcast/mental-health-psychology-and-faith-a-conversation-with-chris-legg-lpc/
Pastor Randy Reid, Clanton First Assembly of God, "mass shootings in America is not a mental illness problem, it’s a spiritual problem." https://www.clantonadvertiser.com/2023/05/29/column-its-not-just-mental-illness/
new york city mayor, "Adams unwittingly implies that the Nazi response to schizophrenics is acceptable: murder them...poverty as proof of dangerous and savage psychosis." https://www.citywatchla.com/index.php/cw/important-reads/27013-the-death-penalty-for-homelessness CBS video on 176,000 calls per year. https://www.cbsnews.com/newyork/news/jordan-neely-death-mental-health-crisis-new-york-city/
Ineffective addiction treatment $24 billion by 2030, more than 20 million Americans. Global behavioural health market $128 billion. https://www.globenewswire.com/news-release/2023/05/30/2678490/0/en/Addiction-Treatment-Market-Size-Worth-USD-24-3-Billion-by-2030-at-9-2-CAGR-Report-by-Market-Research-Future-MRFR.html https://www.pharmiweb.com/press-release/2023-05-30/behavioural-health-market-to-attain-an-estimated-worth-of-us-1562-billion-by-2028-at-a-cagr-of-34
"What are the causes of hallucinations?...Stress and traumatic events...Deprivation of senses...Epilepsy and seizures...antipsychotics, antidepressants, and antihistamines...mess with the way neurotransmitters work in the brain, which can change how people see things." https://www.sportskeeda.com/health-and-fitness/what-are-common-causes-hallucination
"paranoid"...malevolent spirits of Muslim culture...he could feel the presence of the jinn but not see it. What the officer witnessed was his trying to fight the powerlessness he felt as Jinn cursed him." https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/up-and-running/202304/the-hallucinations-you-never-heard-of
Noone should modify someone's body without informed consent. "perception of autistic people and people with [intellectual and developmental disabilities] overall, that we’re not able to make our own decisions. Big decisions like those around health care, education, living arrangements,” they said. “All too often our decisions are viewed with suspicion and fear...In Arkansas, doctors can shield themselves against lawsuits over gender-affirming care if they can prove that their minor patient did not have conditions including autism, depression, ADHD, an eating disorder, an intellectual disability or a psychotic disorder." https://19thnews.org/2023/05/trans-laws-autistic-youth-mental-health/
florida termination of guardianship forms https://www.formsworkflow.com/Form/searchresults/17503-flssi-guardianship-termination-of/1
"Brain in Hand combines practical solution-based coaching with a user-led digital self-management system to help (autistic) individuals build their independence." https://www.miragenews.com/digital-support-reduces-anxiety-in-autistic-1016215/
No penalty for 3 british murders including a 20 year old woman, "choked in her sleep after being given inappropriate medication which had caused 'significant sedation'. The coroner said there was insufficient consideration of 'polypharmacy." https://www.manchestereveningnews.co.uk/news/greater-manchester-news/people-shouldnt-live-poor-conditions-27003379
Deprescribing "four drugs for his moods." https://medshadow.org/14-prescriptions-by-different-doctors/
"Research suggests a connection between low iron levels and symptoms of depression, anxiety, and schizophrenia, Levin and Gattari write." https://www.newswise.com/articles/could-low-iron-be-making-your-mental-health-symptoms-worse
Some processed frozen "meals contribute toward inflammation in the gut, which is where most serotonin...2015 study published in the American Journal of Clinical Nutrition suggested sugary and starchy foods could contribute to depression." https://news.yahoo.com/5-foods-negative-impact-mental-094501356.html
risperdal and haldol cause me muscle spasms. "Serotonin syndrome − a rare but very serious drug reaction...ending the pain once it starts − include standing or walking around, massaging the affected area, improved (calcium) nutrition, sleeping in comfortable positions" doesn't work on my face. https://www.usatoday.com/story/life/health-wellness/2023/05/29/what-causes-muscle-spasms/70249143007/
"I'm not a doctor, but I play one on federal court." https://images.cartoonstock.com/lowres/abortions-rights-usa-judge-matthew_kacsmaryk-abortion_pills-abortion_drugs-prescription-EC501549_low.jpg
Boot Camps for (kidnapped) Kids: Tough Love or Torture, "even going to the bathroom requires permission (as at zucker hillside)." Comment, "80% fail bc their parents didn't go." https://youtu.be/A7Y_yEiJJCU
True story of 40 murders, "Boot Camp" (2008) starring Mila Kunis, "He's not even a real doctor...I don't recognize your fucking credentials." https://youtu.be/idBabcDUy-Q
Three For The Road 1987 Charlie Sheen movie about politician's daughter "doped to the gills" and kidnapped to institution. https://youtu.be/VgB84kX9emE
submitted by ReferendumAutonomic to Censored_Psychology [link] [comments]
"common medications that can trigger depression...Beta blockers...birth control...Levodopa or Sinemet CR are used to treat Parkinson's...Corticosteroids...Stimulants." https://m.jpost.com/health-and-wellness/article-744470
"Certified Peer Support (CPS) specialists to do the outreach. At this point, the INSET model in Westchester County, NY may be the only fully functioning program. They currently have 4 CPS assisting 20 individuals each...But it is not, I repeat not, a relationship of the CPS telling an individual what they have to do or choose." https://mhpolicy.org/finding-a-better-way/
Palestinian doctor in ireland, "patient’s (Qatari) father had “cried and cried and cried”...A psychiatric assessment would take a minimum of between 50 and 60 minutes." Why did suffolk county court blindly believe dr. hsiesh who didn't let me speak and met for less than 5 minutes? https://www.irishtimes.com/health/2023/05/29/doctor-denies-acting-as-representative-of-the-qatari-embassy-to-treat-psychiatric-patient/
texas baptist licensed professional counselor, "Pray about it...take it to God, and then take it to people who you know, and trust...Jesus being perfect but not flawless as a sinless human and the need for a community to battle isolation." https://www.denisonforum.org/biblical-living/podcast/mental-health-psychology-and-faith-a-conversation-with-chris-legg-lpc/
Pastor Randy Reid, Clanton First Assembly of God, "mass shootings in America is not a mental illness problem, it’s a spiritual problem." https://www.clantonadvertiser.com/2023/05/29/column-its-not-just-mental-illness/
new york city mayor, "Adams unwittingly implies that the Nazi response to schizophrenics is acceptable: murder them...poverty as proof of dangerous and savage psychosis." https://www.citywatchla.com/index.php/cw/important-reads/27013-the-death-penalty-for-homelessness CBS video on 176,000 calls per year. https://www.cbsnews.com/newyork/news/jordan-neely-death-mental-health-crisis-new-york-city/
Ineffective addiction treatment $24 billion by 2030, more than 20 million Americans. Global behavioural health market $128 billion. https://www.globenewswire.com/news-release/2023/05/30/2678490/0/en/Addiction-Treatment-Market-Size-Worth-USD-24-3-Billion-by-2030-at-9-2-CAGR-Report-by-Market-Research-Future-MRFR.html https://www.pharmiweb.com/press-release/2023-05-30/behavioural-health-market-to-attain-an-estimated-worth-of-us-1562-billion-by-2028-at-a-cagr-of-34
"What are the causes of hallucinations?...Stress and traumatic events...Deprivation of senses...Epilepsy and seizures...antipsychotics, antidepressants, and antihistamines...mess with the way neurotransmitters work in the brain, which can change how people see things." https://www.sportskeeda.com/health-and-fitness/what-are-common-causes-hallucination
"paranoid"...malevolent spirits of Muslim culture...he could feel the presence of the jinn but not see it. What the officer witnessed was his trying to fight the powerlessness he felt as Jinn cursed him." https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/up-and-running/202304/the-hallucinations-you-never-heard-of
Noone should modify someone's body without informed consent. "perception of autistic people and people with [intellectual and developmental disabilities] overall, that we’re not able to make our own decisions. Big decisions like those around health care, education, living arrangements,” they said. “All too often our decisions are viewed with suspicion and fear...In Arkansas, doctors can shield themselves against lawsuits over gender-affirming care if they can prove that their minor patient did not have conditions including autism, depression, ADHD, an eating disorder, an intellectual disability or a psychotic disorder." https://19thnews.org/2023/05/trans-laws-autistic-youth-mental-health/
florida termination of guardianship forms https://www.formsworkflow.com/Form/searchresults/17503-flssi-guardianship-termination-of/1
"Brain in Hand combines practical solution-based coaching with a user-led digital self-management system to help (autistic) individuals build their independence." https://www.miragenews.com/digital-support-reduces-anxiety-in-autistic-1016215/
No penalty for 3 british murders including a 20 year old woman, "choked in her sleep after being given inappropriate medication which had caused 'significant sedation'. The coroner said there was insufficient consideration of 'polypharmacy." https://www.manchestereveningnews.co.uk/news/greater-manchester-news/people-shouldnt-live-poor-conditions-27003379
Deprescribing "four drugs for his moods." https://medshadow.org/14-prescriptions-by-different-doctors/
"Research suggests a connection between low iron levels and symptoms of depression, anxiety, and schizophrenia, Levin and Gattari write." https://www.newswise.com/articles/could-low-iron-be-making-your-mental-health-symptoms-worse
Some processed frozen "meals contribute toward inflammation in the gut, which is where most serotonin...2015 study published in the American Journal of Clinical Nutrition suggested sugary and starchy foods could contribute to depression." https://news.yahoo.com/5-foods-negative-impact-mental-094501356.html
risperdal and haldol cause me muscle spasms. "Serotonin syndrome − a rare but very serious drug reaction...ending the pain once it starts − include standing or walking around, massaging the affected area, improved (calcium) nutrition, sleeping in comfortable positions" doesn't work on my face. https://www.usatoday.com/story/life/health-wellness/2023/05/29/what-causes-muscle-spasms/70249143007/
"I'm not a doctor, but I play one on federal court." https://images.cartoonstock.com/lowres/abortions-rights-usa-judge-matthew_kacsmaryk-abortion_pills-abortion_drugs-prescription-EC501549_low.jpg
Boot Camps for (kidnapped) Kids: Tough Love or Torture, "even going to the bathroom requires permission (as at zucker hillside)." Comment, "80% fail bc their parents didn't go." https://youtu.be/A7Y_yEiJJCU
True story of 40 murders, "Boot Camp" (2008) starring Mila Kunis, "He's not even a real doctor...I don't recognize your fucking credentials." https://youtu.be/idBabcDUy-Q
Three For The Road 1987 Charlie Sheen movie about politician's daughter "doped to the gills" and kidnapped to institution. https://youtu.be/VgB84kX9emE
2023.05.31 01:24 ReferendumAutonomic 3 British women murdered with no penalty; "assessment...minimum...60 minutes"
Autistic's "caregivers received $5,000 per month...charged with false imprisonment, abuse or neglect and failure to report...pneumonia, wounds across her body, bedsores and ulcers. She was also in septic shock due to infection and suffered cardiac arrest." https://uinterview.com/news/caregivers-who-allegedly-tortured-autistic-woman-to-death-were-paid-250000-by-new-mexico-to-care-for-he
"common medications that can trigger depression...Beta blockers...birth control...Levodopa or Sinemet CR are used to treat Parkinson's...Corticosteroids...Stimulants." https://m.jpost.com/health-and-wellness/article-744470
"Certified Peer Support (CPS) specialists to do the outreach. At this point, the INSET model in Westchester County, NY may be the only fully functioning program. They currently have 4 CPS assisting 20 individuals each...But it is not, I repeat not, a relationship of the CPS telling an individual what they have to do or choose." https://mhpolicy.org/finding-a-better-way/
Palestinian doctor in ireland, "patient’s (Qatari) father had “cried and cried and cried”...A psychiatric assessment would take a minimum of between 50 and 60 minutes." Why did suffolk county court blindly believe dr. hsiesh who didn't let me speak and met for less than 5 minutes? https://www.irishtimes.com/health/2023/05/29/doctor-denies-acting-as-representative-of-the-qatari-embassy-to-treat-psychiatric-patient/
texas baptist licensed professional counselor, "Pray about it...take it to God, and then take it to people who you know, and trust...Jesus being perfect but not flawless as a sinless human and the need for a community to battle isolation." https://www.denisonforum.org/biblical-living/podcast/mental-health-psychology-and-faith-a-conversation-with-chris-legg-lpc/
Pastor Randy Reid, Clanton First Assembly of God, "mass shootings in America is not a mental illness problem, it’s a spiritual problem." https://www.clantonadvertiser.com/2023/05/29/column-its-not-just-mental-illness/
new york city mayor, "Adams unwittingly implies that the Nazi response to schizophrenics is acceptable: murder them...poverty as proof of dangerous and savage psychosis." https://www.citywatchla.com/index.php/cw/important-reads/27013-the-death-penalty-for-homelessness CBS video on 176,000 calls per year. https://www.cbsnews.com/newyork/news/jordan-neely-death-mental-health-crisis-new-york-city/
Ineffective addiction treatment $24 billion by 2030, more than 20 million Americans. Global behavioural health market $128 billion. https://www.globenewswire.com/news-release/2023/05/30/2678490/0/en/Addiction-Treatment-Market-Size-Worth-USD-24-3-Billion-by-2030-at-9-2-CAGR-Report-by-Market-Research-Future-MRFR.html https://www.pharmiweb.com/press-release/2023-05-30/behavioural-health-market-to-attain-an-estimated-worth-of-us-1562-billion-by-2028-at-a-cagr-of-34
"What are the causes of hallucinations?...Stress and traumatic events...Deprivation of senses...Epilepsy and seizures...antipsychotics, antidepressants, and antihistamines...mess with the way neurotransmitters work in the brain, which can change how people see things." https://www.sportskeeda.com/health-and-fitness/what-are-common-causes-hallucination
"paranoid"...malevolent spirits of Muslim culture...he could feel the presence of the jinn but not see it. What the officer witnessed was his trying to fight the powerlessness he felt as Jinn cursed him." https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/up-and-running/202304/the-hallucinations-you-never-heard-of
Noone should modify someone's body without informed consent. "perception of autistic people and people with [intellectual and developmental disabilities] overall, that we’re not able to make our own decisions. Big decisions like those around health care, education, living arrangements,” they said. “All too often our decisions are viewed with suspicion and fear...In Arkansas, doctors can shield themselves against lawsuits over gender-affirming care if they can prove that their minor patient did not have conditions including autism, depression, ADHD, an eating disorder, an intellectual disability or a psychotic disorder." https://19thnews.org/2023/05/trans-laws-autistic-youth-mental-health/
florida termination of guardianship forms https://www.formsworkflow.com/Form/searchresults/17503-flssi-guardianship-termination-of/1
"Brain in Hand combines practical solution-based coaching with a user-led digital self-management system to help (autistic) individuals build their independence." https://www.miragenews.com/digital-support-reduces-anxiety-in-autistic-1016215/
No penalty for 3 british murders including a 20 year old woman, "choked in her sleep after being given inappropriate medication which had caused 'significant sedation'. The coroner said there was insufficient consideration of 'polypharmacy." https://www.manchestereveningnews.co.uk/news/greater-manchester-news/people-shouldnt-live-poor-conditions-27003379
Deprescribing "four drugs for his moods." https://medshadow.org/14-prescriptions-by-different-doctors/
"Research suggests a connection between low iron levels and symptoms of depression, anxiety, and schizophrenia, Levin and Gattari write." https://www.newswise.com/articles/could-low-iron-be-making-your-mental-health-symptoms-worse
Some processed frozen "meals contribute toward inflammation in the gut, which is where most serotonin...2015 study published in the American Journal of Clinical Nutrition suggested sugary and starchy foods could contribute to depression." https://news.yahoo.com/5-foods-negative-impact-mental-094501356.html
risperdal and haldol cause me muscle spasms. "Serotonin syndrome − a rare but very serious drug reaction...ending the pain once it starts − include standing or walking around, massaging the affected area, improved (calcium) nutrition, sleeping in comfortable positions" doesn't work on my face. https://www.usatoday.com/story/life/health-wellness/2023/05/29/what-causes-muscle-spasms/70249143007/
"I'm not a doctor, but I play one on federal court." https://images.cartoonstock.com/lowres/abortions-rights-usa-judge-matthew_kacsmaryk-abortion_pills-abortion_drugs-prescription-EC501549_low.jpg
Boot Camps for (kidnapped) Kids: Tough Love or Torture, "even going to the bathroom requires permission (as at zucker hillside)." Comment, "80% fail bc their parents didn't go." https://youtu.be/A7Y_yEiJJCU
True story of 40 murders, "Boot Camp" (2008) starring Mila Kunis, "He's not even a real doctor...I don't recognize your fucking credentials." https://youtu.be/idBabcDUy-Q
Three For The Road 1987 Charlie Sheen movie about politician's daughter "doped to the gills" and kidnapped to institution. https://youtu.be/VgB84kX9emE
submitted by ReferendumAutonomic to Antipsychiatry [link] [comments]
"common medications that can trigger depression...Beta blockers...birth control...Levodopa or Sinemet CR are used to treat Parkinson's...Corticosteroids...Stimulants." https://m.jpost.com/health-and-wellness/article-744470
"Certified Peer Support (CPS) specialists to do the outreach. At this point, the INSET model in Westchester County, NY may be the only fully functioning program. They currently have 4 CPS assisting 20 individuals each...But it is not, I repeat not, a relationship of the CPS telling an individual what they have to do or choose." https://mhpolicy.org/finding-a-better-way/
Palestinian doctor in ireland, "patient’s (Qatari) father had “cried and cried and cried”...A psychiatric assessment would take a minimum of between 50 and 60 minutes." Why did suffolk county court blindly believe dr. hsiesh who didn't let me speak and met for less than 5 minutes? https://www.irishtimes.com/health/2023/05/29/doctor-denies-acting-as-representative-of-the-qatari-embassy-to-treat-psychiatric-patient/
texas baptist licensed professional counselor, "Pray about it...take it to God, and then take it to people who you know, and trust...Jesus being perfect but not flawless as a sinless human and the need for a community to battle isolation." https://www.denisonforum.org/biblical-living/podcast/mental-health-psychology-and-faith-a-conversation-with-chris-legg-lpc/
Pastor Randy Reid, Clanton First Assembly of God, "mass shootings in America is not a mental illness problem, it’s a spiritual problem." https://www.clantonadvertiser.com/2023/05/29/column-its-not-just-mental-illness/
new york city mayor, "Adams unwittingly implies that the Nazi response to schizophrenics is acceptable: murder them...poverty as proof of dangerous and savage psychosis." https://www.citywatchla.com/index.php/cw/important-reads/27013-the-death-penalty-for-homelessness CBS video on 176,000 calls per year. https://www.cbsnews.com/newyork/news/jordan-neely-death-mental-health-crisis-new-york-city/
Ineffective addiction treatment $24 billion by 2030, more than 20 million Americans. Global behavioural health market $128 billion. https://www.globenewswire.com/news-release/2023/05/30/2678490/0/en/Addiction-Treatment-Market-Size-Worth-USD-24-3-Billion-by-2030-at-9-2-CAGR-Report-by-Market-Research-Future-MRFR.html https://www.pharmiweb.com/press-release/2023-05-30/behavioural-health-market-to-attain-an-estimated-worth-of-us-1562-billion-by-2028-at-a-cagr-of-34
"What are the causes of hallucinations?...Stress and traumatic events...Deprivation of senses...Epilepsy and seizures...antipsychotics, antidepressants, and antihistamines...mess with the way neurotransmitters work in the brain, which can change how people see things." https://www.sportskeeda.com/health-and-fitness/what-are-common-causes-hallucination
"paranoid"...malevolent spirits of Muslim culture...he could feel the presence of the jinn but not see it. What the officer witnessed was his trying to fight the powerlessness he felt as Jinn cursed him." https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/blog/up-and-running/202304/the-hallucinations-you-never-heard-of
Noone should modify someone's body without informed consent. "perception of autistic people and people with [intellectual and developmental disabilities] overall, that we’re not able to make our own decisions. Big decisions like those around health care, education, living arrangements,” they said. “All too often our decisions are viewed with suspicion and fear...In Arkansas, doctors can shield themselves against lawsuits over gender-affirming care if they can prove that their minor patient did not have conditions including autism, depression, ADHD, an eating disorder, an intellectual disability or a psychotic disorder." https://19thnews.org/2023/05/trans-laws-autistic-youth-mental-health/
florida termination of guardianship forms https://www.formsworkflow.com/Form/searchresults/17503-flssi-guardianship-termination-of/1
"Brain in Hand combines practical solution-based coaching with a user-led digital self-management system to help (autistic) individuals build their independence." https://www.miragenews.com/digital-support-reduces-anxiety-in-autistic-1016215/
No penalty for 3 british murders including a 20 year old woman, "choked in her sleep after being given inappropriate medication which had caused 'significant sedation'. The coroner said there was insufficient consideration of 'polypharmacy." https://www.manchestereveningnews.co.uk/news/greater-manchester-news/people-shouldnt-live-poor-conditions-27003379
Deprescribing "four drugs for his moods." https://medshadow.org/14-prescriptions-by-different-doctors/
"Research suggests a connection between low iron levels and symptoms of depression, anxiety, and schizophrenia, Levin and Gattari write." https://www.newswise.com/articles/could-low-iron-be-making-your-mental-health-symptoms-worse
Some processed frozen "meals contribute toward inflammation in the gut, which is where most serotonin...2015 study published in the American Journal of Clinical Nutrition suggested sugary and starchy foods could contribute to depression." https://news.yahoo.com/5-foods-negative-impact-mental-094501356.html
risperdal and haldol cause me muscle spasms. "Serotonin syndrome − a rare but very serious drug reaction...ending the pain once it starts − include standing or walking around, massaging the affected area, improved (calcium) nutrition, sleeping in comfortable positions" doesn't work on my face. https://www.usatoday.com/story/life/health-wellness/2023/05/29/what-causes-muscle-spasms/70249143007/
"I'm not a doctor, but I play one on federal court." https://images.cartoonstock.com/lowres/abortions-rights-usa-judge-matthew_kacsmaryk-abortion_pills-abortion_drugs-prescription-EC501549_low.jpg
Boot Camps for (kidnapped) Kids: Tough Love or Torture, "even going to the bathroom requires permission (as at zucker hillside)." Comment, "80% fail bc their parents didn't go." https://youtu.be/A7Y_yEiJJCU
True story of 40 murders, "Boot Camp" (2008) starring Mila Kunis, "He's not even a real doctor...I don't recognize your fucking credentials." https://youtu.be/idBabcDUy-Q
Three For The Road 1987 Charlie Sheen movie about politician's daughter "doped to the gills" and kidnapped to institution. https://youtu.be/VgB84kX9emE
2023.05.31 01:15 Dan_Stainberg [Econ][Retro] Canada's Federal Budget 2024 Unpacked
SUMMARY
When analysing the new federal budget, there seems to be a nearly universal agreement on the politics that shaped the spending plan. Namely, this budget is big on spending, big on corporate tax reform. Having previously relied on the New Democratic Party to maintain an absolute majority, the Trudeau Government has opted for appeasing their parljlnenatry partners, aiming to buy more time for the this government before the next general election has to be called.Politically, the Budget can be divided into there main lines. Namely, the Liberals trying to follow through with their promises from the last Federal Election, such as introducing the Canada Disability Benefit, a brand-new advanced research agency, as well as over-delivering on expanded supports for lower-income workers. Economically, introducing a tax-free CDB combined with noticeably more generous and broadly available Canada Workers Benefit also aims to boost Canada's labour force participation, to partially offset traditionally low per capital productivity of Canadian workers.
Then, the issue of the supply and confidence agreement with New Democrats comes into play, finally implementing a national dental care plan being finally brought into the budget, followed by a national prescription drug insurance scheme.
As on the greatest surprises comes in the form of what the Government framed as a "business assistance review" and corporate reform, that is set to be a structural response to US's Inflation Reduction Act, namely by brining programmes as IRAP to a one-stop shop, under an arm-length agency outside of the federal industrial strategy ministry. The Government is also following Europe's lead on development Canadian equity markets, that while incremental, may be a first step to less debt-dependent corporate Canada, while nurturing Canadian innovation, since tech companies tend to be much more reliant on equity financing, rather than traditional bank lending.
Politically, the Liberals continue to emphasise fiscal prudence of the budget, citing stable debt-to-GDP ratios, as well as the fact the budget actually contains a structural surplus, when excusing debt service payments from federal expenditure. Ottawa is also trying to hedge against future attacks when it comes to public subsidies, through introducing an independent oversight body, as well as providing full operational autonomy to a new umbrella organisation, to operate business investment programmes and other agencies.
Notably, however, the Liberals seem to be willing to further undermine their reputation as credible fiscal managers, rather the cause a new election by breaking their agreement with NDP, as the LPC continues to struggle in federal polling.
Strengthening Canada's Safety Net
Canada Workers Benefit (CWB) is set to be radically boosted, aiming to boost labour force participation while easing inflationary pressures for the most vulnerable workers. The budget drastically expands both the generosity and eligibility for the CWB by lowering the income threshold from $3000 of annual earnings to just $1, including income from self-employment. The Government of Canada also expands eligibility for the benefit, by more closely aligning it with Québec's Solidarity Tax Credit, making full- and part-time students eligible to claim CWB. The benefit is also enhanced through expansion of both the maximum amount payable and the introduction of a benefit floor - $3000 per annum for the floor and up to $4000 for maximum benefit - per family.Additionally, the Canada Revenue Agency - as well as Revenu Québec, following a short negotiation with the province - are now required to administer both the CWB and the STC in real time, delivering automatic bi-weekly payments to all eligible individuals, so long they've filled their tax return for the previous year. Ottawa is also set to strengthen the programme by introducing the so-called "benefit shield provision" that protects benefit recipients from prohibiting benefit clawbacks in their income increases unexpectedly. Thus, annual CWB entitlement is set to be calculated on the basis on average reported earnings in the last 5 years, paid every 2 weeks. Sudden increases in incomes shall also be excused from the current year's calculation of benefit amounts, applied evenly over the next 5-year calculation period.
Same policy is set to be applied to all other federal benefits and credits, including the Canada Child Benefit - an income-based subsidy for parents - as well as the GST/HST Tax Credit, and the Climate Action Incentive Payment - a rebate paid to households to compensate for the cost of federal price on carbon where one applies.As an interim measure, Ottawa is also set to introduced the "marginal earnings shield" policy that allows the Canada Revenue Agency to issue bi-weekly CWB payments to individuals facing prohibitively high marginal rates of personal taxation, whenever the effective rate exceeds 45 per cent. This includes benefit clawbacks from provincial programmes, as well as increased payroll deductions, such as Employment Insurance Premiums, Canada/Québec Pension Plan Contributions, as well as income tax, union dues, or any other payroll deduction from the CRA or Revenu Quebec. Notably, the earnings shield only applied to income bellow the median AFNI for the given province or territory.
Canada Disability Benefit (CDB) is to beintroduced to supplement provincial social assistance measures for people with special needs. CDB aims to top-up existing provincial disability support programmes, providing simultaneous supplementation of payment to eligible individuals. The benefit is set to be fully aligned with provincial requirements, but also provide equivalent support to those receiving provincial Workers' Compensation Payments, and CPP/QPP Disability benefits, to bring disable Canadians closer to the national poverty thresholds, with CDB maximum capped at $1000 monthly - that is however subject to inflation indexing.
Expanding Canada's Healthcare
Canadian Dental Care Plan (CDCP) previously announced in the last year's budget is finally being rolled out across the country, following almost a year of bilateral talks with the provinces and territories. The Plan remains open to anyone with a communed household income of bellow $120.000 as well as those without an insurance plan that provides free-at-use dental coverage. In case their income exceeds the eligibility threshold, they'd have to pay an increased premium collected by the CRA as a payroll deduction. Anyone is also free to obtain private dental care insurance, so long they don't have a public one, so long it provides continuous coverage, a fully covers all services provided within a medical facility.However, even those with private insurance will still have to face the limitations of the Canada Health Act, namely being barred from any preferential treatment for services covered under the CDCP. To further maintain its universality, the Canada Health Act is amended to require every Canadian resident to maintain a valid dental care insurance coverage at all times, with on obligation on both Ottawa and the Provinces to provide access to that coverage to everyone. Private insurance is still allowed, so long it remains equivalent to the public plan, unless covering supplementary services. The respective assessment of a private plan's equivalence and universal coverage is carried out by Heath Canada, through referring the data that every employer is oblige dot provide, linked to each individual's Social Insurance Number.
Notably, the CDCP is administered - as promised - by a neutral agency, comprised of representatives from Health Canada and provincial, as well as territorial heads of ministries of health -- the Canadian Dental Benefit Administrators (CDBA). CDBA is in turn operates under a two-track system, where the CDCP Council within the CDBA, comprised of provincial representation, and Health Canada, sets up broader general standards of care, coverage, and premiums, while CDBA provincial offices administer the plan within the framework of general provincial health plans. Principal batches of CDBA are free to diverge from national guidelines on coverage and pricing, so long it doesn't change increase expenditure, and preserves free-at-use coverage without significant reduction in quality of care measured in waiting times or increased pressure on the staff, lower efficacy rates.
Funding through the plan altho provided through general taxation, is calculated as a flat income-based insurance premiums, deducted from CDCP's recipient paycheque as part of their Income Tax, with additional levies for those making above the eligibility threshold and choosing to enrol into the Plan. While co-pays are absent for lower income earners completely, everyone enrolled into the Plan is protected an annual limit for out-of-pocket dental care expenditures, capping spending as a share of one's income, that is also revised annually, in line with instigated payroll premiums.
Canadian Pharmaceutical Insurance Plan (CPIP) finally brings a long-awaited universal Pharmacare to Canada, especially territories and provinces other than Quebec. While previously Canada's public health insurance plans would only cover in-hospital medical services, leaving prescription drugs largely to the private market, CPIP is set to change that. The Plan provides compressive coverage for multiple prescription drugs defined in a "national formulary" administrated by the Canada Drug Agency at no cost to every member of the plan, that is tasked with evaluating and authorising the use of new pharmaceuticals to be sold in Canada.
However, CPIP's administration, namely negotiating prices for prescription drugs, is delegated to the Pan-Canadian Pharmaceutical Alliance (pCPA). Originally created as a strictly provincial initiative to join forcing in procuring pharmaceuticals for public drug plans, pCPA is set to be drastically expanded to negotiate prices for prescriptions on behalf of Canada as a whole. Thus, no drug that is deemed by the CDA or Health Canada to require a prescription can be sold, until a procurement deal has been reached with the pCPA.
When conducting negotiations, pCPA largely relies on already existing framework, with the Canada Drug Agency carrying out impact assessment and drug reviews -- a function previously reserved exclusively to Health Canada. pCPA retains it current institutional design, transitioning to completely independent organisation, only contained by appointments from federal, provincial, and territorial governments, with the final procurement deal requiring consent of Health Canada, CDA, federal and provincial ministries of health.
Trying to resist further increases in drug expenditure, pCPA is authorised to conduct joint funding with the Canada Drug Agency for new drugs, especially biologics and generic medications. Most significantly, however, is the "cost-benefit analysis" framework approach when negotiating drug prices or operating joint investment ventures. The assent is mainly focused on estimating long-term savings to the overall healthcare system, as well as possible impact of patients' ability to re-join the labour force. Thus, procurement expenditures are effetely weighted over long-term savings in the healthcare sector as well as future increase in premiums.For its end the Government of Canada is set absorb absorb initial cost of running both Pharamacare and the national dental care, while avoiding reductions to federal healthcare transfers, with further increases managed through the Canada Health Transfer and bilateral negotiations with the privies. To avoid further deterioration of Canada's long-term fiscal position Ottawa is offsetting increased spending through phasing out all employer tax credits for health expenditures, as well as tightening eligibility for individual medical tax credits, while closing the readings gap through the CDCP and CPIP payroll premiums.
Canada's Quiet Corporate Reform
Canadian Equity & Debt Recovery Allowance (CEDRA) is set to largely emulate European proposals for the Debt-Equity Bias Reduction Allowance (DEBRA)733678) to align tax treatment for equity and debit across the tax system. CEDRA provides for a limited deduction of costs associated with issuing new corporate equity, namely stocks and bonds on Canadian stock exchanges.The allowance is calculated using the year-on-year difference between total corporate equity multiplied by risk-free return on equity, equal to the rate for 10-year Government of Canada bonds. Notably, the deception is fully refundable, up to a maximum for any given year and can be carried forward indefinitely.Just like its European equivalent, CEDRA provides for higher risk-free rate of return for smaller companies, as opposed to larger players. Higher rate is set to be the sum of the basic rate or return and the spread between interest rates for smaller and large businesses, calculated every year - CEDRA SMEs. However, unlike DEBRA, the Canadian allowance also provides for even more generous allowance for newer companies, regardless of their size, that is directly proportion to the rate spread between for companies operating for as long as or less 5 years, as opposed to existing incumbents, put on top of the 10-year federal government bonds rate - CEDRA Trailblazers.
b Notably, companies that qualify for both small and new entry rate deductions are allowed to combined both when calculating their entitlement for any given year.
The Government of Canada also brings a "green spin" the to the deduction, with a designated rate calculation for green businesses - CEDRA Net Zero. Thus, the gap in interest rates for low- and zero-emission borrowed and fossil fuel companies is set be compounded with the federal 10-year bonds, and then multiplied by the new year-on-year equity increase. Companies are also allowed to combine the "green rate" deduction with the new entry and small company rates so long the applicant is eligible for each of those individually. Companies operating in mining and processing of critical minerals, battery production, as well production of clean energy equipment and more energy-intensive solutions, including software.
CEDRA provides for special treatment of losses, including those cause by sudden dips in stock prices as a result of monetary tightening or short-selling. While falling short of full refundability, the Government of Canada allows to use deductible equity losses to offset both income and payroll taxes, as well as GST/HST payable for any given year, including carry-back provisions of up to 1 year.
As an additional measure, Canada is limiting debt interest deductibility for all companies operating in the country. Just like DEBRA, the Canadian allowance caps deductibility of net-interest debt payments - interest spent minus interest received - at the level of 85 per cent, with a maximum of $4 million. In line with European proposals, interest deductibility is additionally limited at 30 per cent of the borrower's earnings before interest, taxes, depreciation and amortisation. Companies would only be able to deduct the lowest amount in a tax year, but would be able to carry the difference forward or back, without indexing to inflation.
As an additional measure, the Budget also reforms the deferral dividend tax credit, including the one for Canadian-Controlled Private Corporations. Now, DTC is available to claim for any dividend payments received from a company incorporated in Canada, that has been operational for 5 years or less - DTC Trailblazers - or is actively contributing to the the green economy - DTC Net Zero, including mining and processing of critical minerals, battery production, as well as manufacturing of zero-emission vehicles, suitable materials and clean energy machinery & equipment.
Capital Cost Allowance Green Deduction - allows for full expensing of both machinery & equipment as well business property, for M&E for companies in "green industries", as well as investing in greater energy efficiency of existing industrial structures and equipment, including the cost of full replacement for everyone else. The increased rate also applies to non-mining - with accelerated appreciation maintained for critical minerals - companies of up to 5 years of age.
Canada's New Net Zero Industrial Policy
Investment & Innovation Canada aims to bering several federal crown corporations and business assistance programmes under one roof, operating as a one-stop shop for Canadian businesses. Notably, all entities brought under IIC have their mandrel explicitly promoting competition, namely considering either new market participants or SMEs first, for their investment considerations. Additionally, all participating agencies are set to aim at fulfilling Canada's Net Zero commitment, thrust greater coordination and a more cohesive instrument mix. The agency also aims to provide end-to-end support for Canadian companies across the board, including both setting up, and the scaling up new and existing players, aiming to promote competitive export-oriented companies in critical industries.Additionally, Investment & Innovation Canada introduces significant restructuring business assistance and subsidy institutions themselves. This mainly involves putting maximum emphasis on the "place economy" aiming to decentralise every member institution to the greater possible extent, tailoring their operations to the needs of a local markets. To avoid further confusion, IIC focuses on setting up highly autonomous local branches, to be combined in one-stop-shop for local businesses, by merging the their branches with Canada's Regional Development Agencies, and providing them with full operational autonomy, including agencies that were previously managed directly by the Government of Canada.
IIC is set to coordinate and facilitate operations between following crown corporations:
Business Development Canada (BDC) - a crown corporation tasked with providing capital for Canadian small & medium sized companies, including lending directly to investors to allocate capital to promising companies. Notably, BDC has the scope of their mandate extended, being allowed to provide direct funding to promising companies, as well as new entrants in highly concentrated markets, such as telecommunications, transportation, and banking. Just like EDC, Business Development Canada prioritises support to export-oriented companies.
Export Development Canada (EDC) provides a wide range of export support services and financing, such as risk insurance and direct business guidance, as well access to adorable capital to conduct export operations outside of Canada. Notably, however, under its renewed mandate, EDC is set to also encourage intraprovinical exports to an extent comparable with the support provided to those seeking to enter foreign markets. Equally, EDC has their competences extended to also facilitate overall trade-intensity of Canadian industries, including through increased exposure to imports, both between the provinces and foreign markets. While previously focusing exclusively on promoting overseas sales, the bank of set to roll out equal access to its services to those willing to export into Canada, especially when it comes to components, unfinished products, and intangibles.
Canadian Infrastructure Development Corporation (CIDC) is set to bring together the Canada Infrastructure Bank, the housing accelerator and developments funds, and other related projects, facilitating the supply of funding to national and local infrastructure projects, including affordable housing and public transit, signifying the first time housing is being considered part of Canada's infrastructure. CIDC also brings the Canada Housing & Mortgage Corporation to the table, as an independent body within the CIDC, largely focused on monitoring the market and providing independent impact assessment. Notably, CIDC is set to be allowed to fund projects that are yet to obtain private commitment, giving a first move advantage, so long the project has received an approved for respective regulatory authorities and indigenous groups affected, or if a project aims at reducing carbon emissions.
Labour Development Canada (LDC) is focused on creating more coherent space for federal labour market policy and workforce development, being tasked with development and screening of both businesses and applications in need additional training, as well as matching businesses struggling to recruit with those seeking a job. LDC is also responsible for administrating the Canadian Job Bank, as well as developing the curriculum and training standards for designated sectors. Notably, the Bank also being grated an explicit rights to enter into commercial agreements with provinces, municipalities, and legal entities providing funding for the private sector to re- and up-skill the local workforce, as well as integrate as many people as possible into the labour market.
As its unique feature, each LDC branch is legally required to maintain employee and business representation, with the need for unanimous consent when developing and implementing new measures. Notably, this includes local unions, business associations, and advocacy organisations in the region.
Initial funding the bank is set to be maintained under the Labour Market Development Agreements as well Workforce Development Agreements between Ottawa and the provinces, however the LDC is expected run a "structural surplus" for its existing programmes through employee and employer payroll deductions negotiated under each programme respectively. Therefore only using discretionary federal and provincial spending when operating federal or provincial programmes and launching new initiatives.
Labour Development Canada is also allowed to compete directly with employment agencies and directly administer federal programmes such as the Canada Summer Jobs, while pursuing it mandate: to maximise labour force participation and increase Canada's labour productivity, while increasing access to suitable permanent jobs above the federal poverty line.
Advanced Research & Innovation Canada (ARIC) provides all-in-support for research and development projects aiming at achieving a Net Zero Economy. ARIC brings together the Canadian Foundation for Innovation, and the National Research Council, and the Canada Research Chambers and Canada Growth Fund itself to provide end-to-end support for new green technology. While the Canada Foundation for Innovation provides funding for university research, the Canada Research Chairs brings the human expertise to ARIC, with the National Research Council supporting industrial and company-based business R&D. The Canada Growth Fund, on the other hand aims to provide funding for scale-ups in the green space and innovative sectors, mainly through comprehensive risk sharing and direct lending to existing projects. Unlike other agencies, CGF also has an explicit mandate to support funding for Net Zero and facilitate the acquisition of intellectual property by Canadian enterprises as well as support the creation of new IP by Canadians and in Canada. However, CGF is also being allowed to directly fund industrial research and development to expand accessibility of existing green technology, even where private sector funding has not yet been committed.
Aerospace Development Canada (ADC) delivers direct funding, for R&D and skills in the aerospace sector, as well as providing assistance with training, talent attraction, retention, and initial funding for the aerospace industry. ADC is allowed to also directly fund university research and eduction for those working in the aerospace industry.
Automation & Robotics Canada (ARC) focuses on supporting wider use of automaton and robotics across the Canadian economy. ARC specifically allows companies to obtain a rebate for their M&E expenses, as well as receive a loan or a grant to modernise existing equipment, or replace, expand existing industrial assets. SMEs can recuperate up to 110 per cent of their M&E expenses with ARC, and over 125 per cent when it comes to automating their processes and installing newer software. Notably, ARC is set to operate in parallel with the Canada Digital Adoption Program.
Agri-Foods Canada (AFC) administers programs when it comes to agricultural and foods production, focusing on providing funding for agricultural research, and development of new products, chemicals, processing methods, and crops that utilise that are more environmentally suitable.
While major business assistance programmes remain within the realm of the federal ISED, IIC is allowed to administer those directly and change their structure, so long associate costs are borne by the IIC institutions themselves. Programmes immediately transferred under the responsibility of IIC include the Canada Digital Adoption Program (CDAP), the Industrial Research Assistance Program (IRAP). Notably, however, IIC uses several other finical instruments to carry out its mandate:
- Income-Contingent Grants - grants funded directly by the CIB, with a subsequent return of funds. Unlike standard loans, ISGs are paid by the borrower as a share of their future income, until the debt is fully repaid - or written off by mutual agreement of both parties.
- Investment Supplementary Funding - provides financing provided by an IIC institution in proportion to investments from the private sector. Thus, for every $2 of private investment in a particular project or company, ISF guarantees at least $1 of investment from the CIB, subject to an appropriate agreement with the recipient company.
- Comprehensive Liabilities Guarantee - allow IIC to insure the assets of external investors - and the company itself - in a specific project or company in exchange for risk premiums from potential recipients. So, if the project will lead to losses for investors, IIC will return the funds spent.
- Outcome-Oriented Financing is the broadest possible definition of bank financial guarantees, which are fulfilled when certain conditions are met by the recipient. OOF may involve the direct financing, creation, write-off or investment, deferment, freezing - and so on - of the financial obligations of the borrower, in exchange for the achievement of certain indicators. First of all, we are talking about achieving predetermined growth rates of productivity - both labor and multifactorial - or such indicators as reducing the levels of debt burden, higher capital and science intensity, as well as interaction with external markets.
- Bridging Finance - bridge financing provided either in crisis situations or at an early stage of the project, when existing agreements with investors already exist, it is not possible to access short-term financing or funds necessary for the implementation of the initial stage of the project.
- Pooled Securitisation - financing of joint projects carried out by several small companies at once, with the accompanying distribution of risks. PS also covers the placement of assets on public markets.
As on overriding set of criteria, the Office is set to evaluate how existing government programmes measure against increasing competition in a marketplace - being required to prioritise companies of 5 years of younger, as well as SMES - and foster finically independent enterprise - defined a profitability over the 5 year period excusing government assistance -, as well as help to achieve the Net Zero goal.The Office is set to also maidan regional representation, aimed at scrutinising Regional Development Agencies, each branched aimed at a respective RDA, with a representative from CBAO and a respective provincial or territorial legislative assembly.
To further strengthen the accountability regime, the Budget amends respective acts relating to the Business Development Canada, Export Development Canada, National Research Council, Regional Development Agencies, and the Canada Infrastructure Development Canada's constituent units, as well as an additional overarching mandate for the Investment & Innovation Canada.
Thus, all the parties affected now have to comply with a "dual" mandate oversseen by the CBAO. Apart from fulfilling their original duty, such as infrastructure development, export promotion, or investment in green tech, all the agencies ought to remain finically profitable indecent of public support, defined all persistent surplus over the 5-year horizon.
In turn, the agencies are allowed to earn income through repayable grants, equity stakes, as well as acquisition of assets, such as intellectual property, and issuance of Canada Development & Innovation Bonds. CDIBs are set to be equated to the Government of Canada bills, with Ottawa directly guaranteeing the ability of an issuer to service their debts. Notably, each issuance has to be authorised by the IIC, before a respective institution can act on its own.
Additional Readings
https://taxpolicy.crawford.anu.edu.au/sites/default/files/publication/taxstudies_crawford_anu_edu_au/2022-03/complete_ace_wp_2022.pdfhttps://mowatcentre.munkschool.utoronto.ca/wp-content/uploads/publications/88_corporate_tax_reform.pdf
https://taxfoundation.org/benefits-of-full-immediate-expensing/
https://irpp.org/research-studies/cracking-canadas-productivity-conundrum/
https://irpp.org/wp-content/uploads/2018/10/Facing-the-Facts-Reconsidering-Business-Innovation-Policy-in-Canada.pdf
https://politics.utoronto.ca/publication/innovation-in-real-places-strategies-for-prosperity-in-an-unforgiving-world/
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6246044/
https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/case-national-investment-authority-henry-kopesky
https://maytree.com/wp-content/uploads/canada-working-age-supplement-report.pdf
https://capx.co/subsidies-are-no-way-to-support-business-but-there-is-a-better-alternative/
https://www.politico.com/news/2023/03/29/canada-u-s-clean-energy-ira-00089284
https://civitas.org.uk/pdf/SavingsBanks2010.pdf
https://maytree.com/wp-content/uploads/canada-working-age-supplement-report.pdf
https://www.economist.com/finance-and-economics/2022/01/22/why-the-bias-for-debt-over-equity-is-hard-to-dislodge
2023.05.31 01:06 LGBTQIA_Over50 What is a good position to start PT that isn't too physically intensive?
Two areas on the East Coast, Northern Virginia or New Haven, CT (isn't there a Wegmans opening in CT)?
I came from the business office sector. Are there any openings that wouldn't involve direct food? Like customer service or something, or recruiting or back office.
I am over age 50. I do not have any disabilities. I never filed a work place injury on the job. I have a clear background. I am very reliable and never had attendance issues at my prior jobs.
I am skilled in customer service, cash handling, payroll, recruiting, insurance. I have 2 college degrees but I can leave them off of my resume. Q: do you recommend that?
Q; Are medical, dental, vision benefits available for PT people?
Q: Where are the distribution centers located in Virginia and what kinds of jobs do they have?
If I think of other questions as I go along, I'll update them here
Thanks
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I came from the business office sector. Are there any openings that wouldn't involve direct food? Like customer service or something, or recruiting or back office.
I am over age 50. I do not have any disabilities. I never filed a work place injury on the job. I have a clear background. I am very reliable and never had attendance issues at my prior jobs.
I am skilled in customer service, cash handling, payroll, recruiting, insurance. I have 2 college degrees but I can leave them off of my resume. Q: do you recommend that?
Q; Are medical, dental, vision benefits available for PT people?
Q: Where are the distribution centers located in Virginia and what kinds of jobs do they have?
If I think of other questions as I go along, I'll update them here
Thanks
2023.05.31 01:01 Timeraft [F4A] Ex-Mafia Bartender Shares Her Past [Reverse Comfort] [Acquaintances to Lovers] [Older Woman][Protective] [Tough] [Crime] [Ex-Con] [Prison Life] [Regrets][Good to Monetize and Modify!]
Thanks u/TheWickedQueen_ for the commission!
This was a six dollar commission so once the commissioner gets a crack at the script it becomes public for anybody that wants it!
I've always kinda disliked the "sexy mafia dude/gal is all into you" cliche. I've always felt that criminals are either romanticized or demonized in fiction, like a slightly less creepy Madonna vs Whore complex. As somebody that grew up in an area with a lot of Ex-cons I wanted to make something more down to earth and explore what its like to be an ex-con a little bit ( I think I've just watched The Wire too much lol).
Also this city isn't based on any real place although I think its probably in the American rust belt somewhere. Its named after the city from Revolt of the Cockroach people
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You've been coming to this seedy hole in the wall bar for a while, and it's not exactly for the food or the ambiance. No, it's because you've got a massive crush on the former-criminal-turned-bartender who runs the place. You know she doesn't see you that way, but for now, you're happy just to spend time with her and listen to her stories. But today, you'll realize just how badly she's misunderstood your intentions.
Dialogue
Context
SFX
Listener is a quiet shy type living in the inner city(probably early to late 20’s). Speaker is an ex mob boss turned bartender(Probably mid-30’s-early 40’s). They like spending time with the listener and telling stories, but they see a little more of themselves in the young person than they’d like.
And how's my favorite little regular customer on this hot summer night?
You feel that south wind blowing up Saginaw Highway? All hot and dry and smelling like the smog that usually stays way down in the valley? That means it's gonna be a scorcher. So make sure you stay hydrated tomorrow.
Rough day eh? I suppose I can relate. I admire you for sticking it out though, for what it's worth I never could myself. I never took to working, and I paid for it.
I’m surprised you don't have anywhere better to be. What I wouldn't give to be your age again, all alone just before sunset in the dog days of summer. You sure there's no pretty girl out there, just waiting on you to show up at her door and ask if she’s too busy for a little dancing?
No girl? Is there a boy?
Not that either eh? A good looking little thing like you with no place better to be than my little hole in the wall bar. Makes me wonder what you’re really after. I don't suppose you’re here for my pretty face either.
Sets glass on bar
Drink up kid, it's on the house. Finish it up and leave. Don't come round here no more.
Don't give me that look. It's not anything you did.
Listen, you're a good kid. You don't want to hear this, but you’re innocent. Pure as fresh fallen snow. I’d kill to get half of that innocence for myself.
I know you’ve figured out that my regulars are all criminals or ex-cons, they come in here to take a load off. Or sometimes talk shop. I don't care about them, they’re all too far gone for somebody like me to be able to pull them back, but I can stop you at least.
This isn't a place for somebody like you. So finish your drink. And leave.
You remind me of a younger me. The dissatisfied ambitious youngblood, who felt like they weren't going to get anywhere in life unless they were willing to take serious risks.
I spent a lot of time in a place just like this, trying to rub elbows with the people I looked up to.
I told you all the stories before, but what the hell, how about a refresher.
It took a while, but I got in and I was pretty good at it.
Real good.
There was a time not too long ago where I ran this whole neighborhood. Ran the numbers game for a while, that was safe but the returns weren’t the millions I dreamed of so I moved on to more dangerous stuff.
Turned out I was good at that too. Too good. People got hurt. I need you to understand that.
I hurt people. A lot of people. More than I ever got punished for.
And it got me what I wanted. Power. Money. Respect. Fear.
It couldn't last though. You can never be on top all the time.
The sheriffs and the staties couldn't touch me, but I got sloppy with my money and the revenuers locked me up. That's typically how it goes.
I spent ten years in Terre Haute, eight behind bars and two working at the baking powder factory. When I got back to Tooner Flats everything I built was gone, all I had left was this building. I’d never even been inside before. I just used it to launder money.
You ever spend any time in a prison? I know you’re aware it's not a fun time, but you know what really kills you? It's not the gangs or the guards. It's the boredom.
Time slips away from you, but also seems to pass so slow that it's like trying to carve your name in dry cement.
You try to keep your feet on the ground, but you can't all the time.
You get up in the morning at 6, get counted at six fifteen, eat your oatmeal at six thirty, grab a full eight assembling office furniture for the feds. Two hours of rec time, outside if you’re really well behaved. Eat dinner, green Jello on fridays, red Jello every other day. Bed inspection. Choose between the library or the movie. Go to your bunk, lights out.
Lather, rinse, repeat.
I went mad for most of year four, came back around to something close to sanity in year six. I never really fully recovered though. I cant really complain I suppose, I deserved to be in there. A lot of people have been in there a lot longer for a lot less.
Here, I want you to try something
Opens a bag of chips and pours them into a bowl
This is a brand of chips they had in the canteen out there in Indiana. You can't normally get this brand outside of prison. I picked up a few bags on ebay because every now and then I find myself craving it. They’re flavored with whatever flavor dust the day shift at the chip factory didn’t use up, so they’ve got a lot going on. Try a couple.
Crunch
Kinda gross right? Wayyyy too much flavor and it all clashes weird. It's like licking the floor at Dollar general.
But believe me. They hit differently when you’re wearing orange and black.
When everything feels and looks the same day and day out, you start craving sensation. Any sensation. This absolute overload of flavor felt like heaven. The closest I ever saw to a riot was the saturday they opened the canteen without a fresh stock of these.
You go a little crazy in there. Just looking for anything to silence that steady drumbeat of monotony. I got really into the twilight books when they were coming out. I know somebody that spent a long time in solitary who spent their time touching cold metal, waiting for it to get warm, letting go and touching it again when it got cold again. Anything to break up the void.
When I look back at those two years where I was on top of the world, they weren't worth it. They weren't worth my time in Indiana. I don't want you to make the same mistakes I did.
Downs a drink and slams down the glass
My dad won't even talk to me now.
He was a nurse, down at the VA clinic on Cleveland Boulevard. It’s closed now, I think they tore it down and built a Costco. Back when I was a kid it was still seen as emasculating for a man to take that job, but he was good at it and it paid enough for him to raise me on his own after mom died. I felt ashamed though.
He was a good honest man, and I spent my childhood ashamed of him. And then threw away everything he ever gave me to pursue life as a bigshot.
I tried to visit him the other day. He lives in a trailer park on the other side of old highway nine, way down in the valley now. I could see him in there, on his chair watching the hockey game.
He could see me. I knocked and we made eye contact, but he never stirred from his chair.
I suppose I’m dead to him,and I don't blame him. I just wish to god I wasn't.
So finish that drink and leave. If I see you around again I’ll break your arms.
Listener swears they don't come around because they want to be criminal
Oh no? You’re not in the market for a life of crime? Why do you come around then? Riddle me that. I know it's not for the drinks, I can't mix a cocktail to save my life, and I know it's not for the company. What are you an undercover cop or something?
My stories? You're pulling my leg! I’m just old and full of shit. Next thing you're gonna say you’ve got some sort of crush on me.
Listener does not deny it.
No
Nooooo
Oh god. You’re kidding.
Hysterical laughter
What in the name of Peter and Jane is wrong with you!?
Look at me. I’ve easily got ten years on you. I'm going grey and getting wrinkles.
I’ve got callouses from the prison shop and dark circles around my eyes that won't go away no matter how much I try to sleep. My hands are cold and my face is sad. Little kids cry when they see me at the grocery store.
You deserve some passionate young woman with stars in her eyes. Mine are just empty and tired. I don't have passion in me anymore.
Hell I don't even do anything anymore. All I want to do at the end of the day is make myself some oatmeal and watch the rerun channel. You can do better.
You can do a lot better.
I really can't talk you out of it?
Well who am I to deny you the right to make terrible choices? You can't say I didn't warn you about me. You damn fool.
I’ll tell you what. This place is dead tonight, what do you say we go dancing?
On one condition. You stop hanging around here. If this works it works and we’ll hang out someplace else. And if it doesnt I dont need you floating around like a sad little puppy.
Deal? Good
They kiss the listener on the cheek.
Go back home and clean up a bit, I’ll go upstairs and do the same. It’s ballroom night at the Falcons lodge. I haven't danced in ages and I want to see if I’ve still got it. We’ll see where that south wind takes us from there.
I’ll see you in an hour. On the dot. If you panic now and stand me up I might straight up break your legs.
God you’re an idiot
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This was a six dollar commission so once the commissioner gets a crack at the script it becomes public for anybody that wants it!
I've always kinda disliked the "sexy mafia dude/gal is all into you" cliche. I've always felt that criminals are either romanticized or demonized in fiction, like a slightly less creepy Madonna vs Whore complex. As somebody that grew up in an area with a lot of Ex-cons I wanted to make something more down to earth and explore what its like to be an ex-con a little bit ( I think I've just watched The Wire too much lol).
Also this city isn't based on any real place although I think its probably in the American rust belt somewhere. Its named after the city from Revolt of the Cockroach people
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You've been coming to this seedy hole in the wall bar for a while, and it's not exactly for the food or the ambiance. No, it's because you've got a massive crush on the former-criminal-turned-bartender who runs the place. You know she doesn't see you that way, but for now, you're happy just to spend time with her and listen to her stories. But today, you'll realize just how badly she's misunderstood your intentions.
Dialogue
Context
SFX
Listener is a quiet shy type living in the inner city(probably early to late 20’s). Speaker is an ex mob boss turned bartender(Probably mid-30’s-early 40’s). They like spending time with the listener and telling stories, but they see a little more of themselves in the young person than they’d like.
And how's my favorite little regular customer on this hot summer night?
You feel that south wind blowing up Saginaw Highway? All hot and dry and smelling like the smog that usually stays way down in the valley? That means it's gonna be a scorcher. So make sure you stay hydrated tomorrow.
Rough day eh? I suppose I can relate. I admire you for sticking it out though, for what it's worth I never could myself. I never took to working, and I paid for it.
I’m surprised you don't have anywhere better to be. What I wouldn't give to be your age again, all alone just before sunset in the dog days of summer. You sure there's no pretty girl out there, just waiting on you to show up at her door and ask if she’s too busy for a little dancing?
No girl? Is there a boy?
Not that either eh? A good looking little thing like you with no place better to be than my little hole in the wall bar. Makes me wonder what you’re really after. I don't suppose you’re here for my pretty face either.
Sets glass on bar
Drink up kid, it's on the house. Finish it up and leave. Don't come round here no more.
Don't give me that look. It's not anything you did.
Listen, you're a good kid. You don't want to hear this, but you’re innocent. Pure as fresh fallen snow. I’d kill to get half of that innocence for myself.
I know you’ve figured out that my regulars are all criminals or ex-cons, they come in here to take a load off. Or sometimes talk shop. I don't care about them, they’re all too far gone for somebody like me to be able to pull them back, but I can stop you at least.
This isn't a place for somebody like you. So finish your drink. And leave.
You remind me of a younger me. The dissatisfied ambitious youngblood, who felt like they weren't going to get anywhere in life unless they were willing to take serious risks.
I spent a lot of time in a place just like this, trying to rub elbows with the people I looked up to.
I told you all the stories before, but what the hell, how about a refresher.
It took a while, but I got in and I was pretty good at it.
Real good.
There was a time not too long ago where I ran this whole neighborhood. Ran the numbers game for a while, that was safe but the returns weren’t the millions I dreamed of so I moved on to more dangerous stuff.
Turned out I was good at that too. Too good. People got hurt. I need you to understand that.
I hurt people. A lot of people. More than I ever got punished for.
And it got me what I wanted. Power. Money. Respect. Fear.
It couldn't last though. You can never be on top all the time.
The sheriffs and the staties couldn't touch me, but I got sloppy with my money and the revenuers locked me up. That's typically how it goes.
I spent ten years in Terre Haute, eight behind bars and two working at the baking powder factory. When I got back to Tooner Flats everything I built was gone, all I had left was this building. I’d never even been inside before. I just used it to launder money.
You ever spend any time in a prison? I know you’re aware it's not a fun time, but you know what really kills you? It's not the gangs or the guards. It's the boredom.
Time slips away from you, but also seems to pass so slow that it's like trying to carve your name in dry cement.
You try to keep your feet on the ground, but you can't all the time.
You get up in the morning at 6, get counted at six fifteen, eat your oatmeal at six thirty, grab a full eight assembling office furniture for the feds. Two hours of rec time, outside if you’re really well behaved. Eat dinner, green Jello on fridays, red Jello every other day. Bed inspection. Choose between the library or the movie. Go to your bunk, lights out.
Lather, rinse, repeat.
I went mad for most of year four, came back around to something close to sanity in year six. I never really fully recovered though. I cant really complain I suppose, I deserved to be in there. A lot of people have been in there a lot longer for a lot less.
Here, I want you to try something
Opens a bag of chips and pours them into a bowl
This is a brand of chips they had in the canteen out there in Indiana. You can't normally get this brand outside of prison. I picked up a few bags on ebay because every now and then I find myself craving it. They’re flavored with whatever flavor dust the day shift at the chip factory didn’t use up, so they’ve got a lot going on. Try a couple.
Crunch
Kinda gross right? Wayyyy too much flavor and it all clashes weird. It's like licking the floor at Dollar general.
But believe me. They hit differently when you’re wearing orange and black.
When everything feels and looks the same day and day out, you start craving sensation. Any sensation. This absolute overload of flavor felt like heaven. The closest I ever saw to a riot was the saturday they opened the canteen without a fresh stock of these.
You go a little crazy in there. Just looking for anything to silence that steady drumbeat of monotony. I got really into the twilight books when they were coming out. I know somebody that spent a long time in solitary who spent their time touching cold metal, waiting for it to get warm, letting go and touching it again when it got cold again. Anything to break up the void.
When I look back at those two years where I was on top of the world, they weren't worth it. They weren't worth my time in Indiana. I don't want you to make the same mistakes I did.
Downs a drink and slams down the glass
My dad won't even talk to me now.
He was a nurse, down at the VA clinic on Cleveland Boulevard. It’s closed now, I think they tore it down and built a Costco. Back when I was a kid it was still seen as emasculating for a man to take that job, but he was good at it and it paid enough for him to raise me on his own after mom died. I felt ashamed though.
He was a good honest man, and I spent my childhood ashamed of him. And then threw away everything he ever gave me to pursue life as a bigshot.
I tried to visit him the other day. He lives in a trailer park on the other side of old highway nine, way down in the valley now. I could see him in there, on his chair watching the hockey game.
He could see me. I knocked and we made eye contact, but he never stirred from his chair.
I suppose I’m dead to him,and I don't blame him. I just wish to god I wasn't.
So finish that drink and leave. If I see you around again I’ll break your arms.
Listener swears they don't come around because they want to be criminal
Oh no? You’re not in the market for a life of crime? Why do you come around then? Riddle me that. I know it's not for the drinks, I can't mix a cocktail to save my life, and I know it's not for the company. What are you an undercover cop or something?
My stories? You're pulling my leg! I’m just old and full of shit. Next thing you're gonna say you’ve got some sort of crush on me.
Listener does not deny it.
No
Nooooo
Oh god. You’re kidding.
Hysterical laughter
What in the name of Peter and Jane is wrong with you!?
Look at me. I’ve easily got ten years on you. I'm going grey and getting wrinkles.
I’ve got callouses from the prison shop and dark circles around my eyes that won't go away no matter how much I try to sleep. My hands are cold and my face is sad. Little kids cry when they see me at the grocery store.
You deserve some passionate young woman with stars in her eyes. Mine are just empty and tired. I don't have passion in me anymore.
Hell I don't even do anything anymore. All I want to do at the end of the day is make myself some oatmeal and watch the rerun channel. You can do better.
You can do a lot better.
I really can't talk you out of it?
Well who am I to deny you the right to make terrible choices? You can't say I didn't warn you about me. You damn fool.
I’ll tell you what. This place is dead tonight, what do you say we go dancing?
On one condition. You stop hanging around here. If this works it works and we’ll hang out someplace else. And if it doesnt I dont need you floating around like a sad little puppy.
Deal? Good
They kiss the listener on the cheek.
Go back home and clean up a bit, I’ll go upstairs and do the same. It’s ballroom night at the Falcons lodge. I haven't danced in ages and I want to see if I’ve still got it. We’ll see where that south wind takes us from there.
I’ll see you in an hour. On the dot. If you panic now and stand me up I might straight up break your legs.
God you’re an idiot
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2023.05.31 00:51 RogueRange_ Doubt ahead of F1 interview (undergraduate)
I am an Egyptian living in Pakistan and I'll be seeking a US visa to pursue my bachelor's degree in Mechanical Engineering at Mississippi State University. The interview for my F-1 visa on June 9th and I had a few doubts regarding my case I wanted to clarify.
I would appreciate any insights regarding how i could better articulate my responses in a way that is both concise and accurately reflects my situation.
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- I have applied to 10 universities and have been accepted to 3, been waitlisted at 3, and rejected by 4. I've been admitted to NYU, Mississippi State and Indiana University Bloomington. While I would've loved to attend NYU, I didn't receive enough financial aid and it was simply unaffordable for my parents. IU Bloomington waitlisted me from their Wells Scholarship and therefore I have committed to Mississippi State since it had the right balance between affordability and a good engineering department. I have a full tuition merit scholarship in addition to a housing scholarship too. Besides, Starkville is a small town and that is something that was important both for me, since I hate big cities, and for my parents too as it is comparatively safer. However, I am concerned about articulating my "why this university" answer effectively at the interview, as I don't want to give the impression that I chose MS State solely based on financial considerations not because I actually want to go there and I also don't want to go overboard since the most common advice here is to be concise. I might be overthinking but I do not want to VO to assume that I've settled for an average university just to have an excuse to go to the US since no one would pick MS State over NYU if the circumstances were different.
- I have received conflicting advice regarding the amount of financial proof to be provided at the interview if asked. After accounting for scholarships, my I-20 estimates my expenses for one year to be $13,000. My parents have $23,500 in savings and while that is close to double the amount I need, they keep their savings in cash at home since Pakistan is risking default and they don't trust banks at the moment. They have, however, deposited the amount back into their account in order to generate a bank statement for me but I was wondering if the fact that the amount has been deposited recently in one-go would cause me an issue at the interview.
Plans after graduation: The aspect that concerns me the most is demonstrating ties to Pakistan. Apart from their jobs here, my parents have no ties here, we don't own our home and are renting since foriegners cannot buy real estate in Pakistan. However, my parents own three apartments in Egypt, and they have government jobs waiting for them when they return. Personally, upon returning I'd want to seek employment in the developing industries in the new cities that are being built, such as the new capital, because I'd like to live close to my parents who will too be leaving Pakistan by the time I graduate. However, I don't want the visa officer to interpret the fact that my parents will be leaving Pakistan as weak ties or possibility that my parents might accompany me to the US. How can I effectively convey my intentions and ensure that my plans are understood in the right context?
I would appreciate any insights regarding how i could better articulate my responses in a way that is both concise and accurately reflects my situation.
2023.05.31 00:51 hi-its-carl [US] [SELLING] Build Your Own Bundle Sale! Manga sets and singles, manhwa, light novels, and more.
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Paypal Goods & Services (G&S) Transactions Only. If anyone (possibly with a very similar username to mine) messages you and asks to do any other type of transaction, they're a lowlife scammer and should be reported to Mods immediately.
Spend $50 to get free shipping/insurance, otherwise it is $6.
Check out the bottom of the post for my selection of indie / small publisher manga!
If it isn't crossed out
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Sets - free shipping included
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